She was my best friend, my girlfriend and my best friend again. But I could not go beyond the past and decided to finish this story. I decided to block her in every way I can, to make sure I won't feel the urge to contact her again. Of course, I can simply unblock her. But I'm hoping that, after enough time, she doesn't want to talk to me anymore.
Well, actually, I wish time could go back and that I could change a few things and make our relationship work properly and last forever. I always lacked self-confidence and I've always been weak. She said I'm negative and that as long as I keep being like that, no good will come to me. If only things were that simple... She's always been negative as well and maybe that's why she gave up on us. Maybe I should have told her that...
I now, officially, close my heart to the world. I've never been good with it so there's no point in leaving it vulnerable.
I don't know what will happen now. All I know is that more suffering is coming. Erasing her from my life is the worst, hardest and most troublesome mistake I've ever made. But I'm hoping that, by doing this, I'm giving her a chance to be happy without me.
Let her be safe and happy
FerHanKlassar Community Member 
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