I ain't gonna say no names, cause the person I am about to mention is on gaia.
It's so weird how this person acts. . . .extremely weird. . . .
(nameless) all of sudden dresses girly, interested in boys, and trying to be more social. . . .and most of all, nameless is trying to forget about me . . . .oh she can do that, but I bet its' hard as h*ll, and all that she has done to change herself, only made her reputation worst. . . . .I ask some people about how they feel about her. . . .they honestly don't like her. . . . .they can just talk about her behind her back guilt-free, and all this time, I'm thinking she all of sudden just became Ms. Popular, thats' just wat she thinks. Its' weird when you are on this side of the bridge and now you on the other side, its' weird when your best friends become your enemies and you old enemies become your best friends. . . . .
For someone to be able to do that, and not even care, why should anyone care about that person. I kno I conform a little to the people I am around cause I kno who people are and how to be cool with them. but its weird. How can you lie, fake, and be completely different, and then be some one else around someone else.
Crazy. that is a confused person. I used to think she was so beautiful and intelligent and confident that she didn't care wat she looked like, or what people thought about her, she was stronger than any of that.
then boom like a slap in the face. . . she's the exact opposite, ugly, confused, unsure. . . . .
I used to care a great deal about her. . . .but she doesn't care about anybody. . . .
she's really getting off lucky cause the people around here are extremely nice. . .(and I know this cause some of her friends can see the difference and they don't like it)
but everyone is not going to get walked on in the world. . . .and I'm not one of those people anymore. . . . . .
beutiful people with ugly, tainted attitude can just live life the way the are now, not knowing that they might end up alone. . . .
It starts by losing one, then another, and then poof, you're in a dark room, wondering what happened to them, and what happened to yourself. . . . .
Another thing that is crazy and hurtful is that as a friend, I poured out my soul, I told her, I would always be a friend, and that I would always be here. . . . .
I guess she didn't want a friend. . . . . .I'm not sure what she wants anymore. . . . .but she's not who she was. . . . .and she never will again. . . .
and if she were to become that person again. . . .I wouldn't know. . . .and it would be way to late for me to care. . . . .
ya know what else, I found out that she is a masterful liar. . . .because she lied to other people in my face, when I knew the truth. . . .it really had me crying when she did it. . . . .cause it made me think about all the stuff she does. . . . .but that was a few monthes ago. I can actually tell people now what she did and how she is without having a breakdown. . . .cause I feel that the experience was an eye-opener and a point of inspiration for me to not be weak anymore, and be much stronger than her. . . .and I am stronger than her. . . and I'm proud cause she can't shake me anymore, and she really has no one to confide in that truly understands. . . . .she can say this and say that, but its not gonna stop me from thinkin its a cover. . . . .she is a all fake. . . . . .
I'm just gonna say that for those who read this and be like," oh if you don't care so much why are you writing" and junk.
This is my journal, and I feel the need to express how I feel, and that I think that important matters with emotions, thoughts, feelings, and important matters with the heart should not be bottled up. I also feel the need to express how strong i have become, and how stronger I am becoming, and how wiser and smarter I am and will be about the people I meet from here on, because to me, its' an honor and a privaledge to be in my life. . . . .work to get it, work to keep it. . . . .
I just wanna know anyone's thoughts on people they know that changed completely in a negative sense. and If you are angry or sad, let me know, cause I'm done being sensitive, and my tears WILL have true reason than dumb reason.
life is too short for all this foolishness, and foolish people. If enough people comment or talk to me about anything, I might close off my journal to only my friendslist and actually tell everything. . . . . .
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