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Mental Cesspool
All the little thoughts, problems, and concerns that I may be dealing with at any given time, spread out for the internet to see.
Blood, Burns, And Bottled-Up Pain
Alright, so cutting myself wasn't exactly the smartest thing I could've done. Or burning myself. But I did it, and I've learned from it (mainly that it hurts D; ) and we're MOVING ON. I don't want to get any s**t for it. People only see the mutilation aspect of cutters. They don't understand the inability to cope with the pain they're obviously feeling, or the fact that they tried to talk to their friends, but all their friends were too tired or too busy or off-center and couldn't be there for them.
I did it because I was alone and scared. I tried to talk with my friends. All of them were busy (or in a situation listed above). I didn't know how else to bring myself down from the way I was feeling, how else to bring my mind back into focus. Well, I did it. And I feel better. Except for the raw skin on my ankle. ._.

I've made my case. Judge me if you want.

I'm going through pain I haven't felt since Kay left me. I'm hurt. I'm bleeding inside. I'm dying. I don't feel like I have anyone here for me. It's a lonely feeling.

And it's all over a guy. An insensitive, selfish, stupid guy who I can't stop loving right now.






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The_Manly_Succubus
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commentCommented on: Mon Sep 06, 2010 @ 01:52am
I wasn't busy. :/ You know that I'm always here for you, whether it be on the phone or computer.


commentCommented on: Mon Sep 06, 2010 @ 03:28am
You hurt yourself because of a guy that you didn't even know for that long ?
Why? Does that solve anything ?
Told you not to get attached to a guy so easily.
WHY DO YOU NOT LISTEN?!



Tropical Dreams
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