I can't say anything else other than sorry. Maybe it's still more for myself too. Now I'm on Gaia more or less to pass time. There's only a few people I know that are real friends.
It's been a cruel lesson... something enough to break the heart. Silly enough even if it's just online. But I can't lie to myself anymore.
Actions speak louder than words. And the actions that I've seen are quite ugly. It's not worth it for me to get angry (angrier) than I have. "Revenge" is out of the question and a no-no. Behind a screen. There's not much I can do except choose.
Choose to be honest or choose to lie.
A lot of people lie... not news to you. But it was to me. Why? I thought some of these people actually cared. That was my mistake. No, I'm not saying "lol it's cool cause it's the internet, not their fault". When you trust someone and you talk to them on a personal level... it should be friendship that keeps you together.
In stead. For most of my "Friendships" I noticed only trolling and fooling around kept us together. And the moment I stopped? I didn't see as many of my friends as I should have.
Does it hurt? Yeah. Will I keep prolonging the illusion? No... I didn't want to believe any of it was true. I lashed out a few times to people. Then we made up (some of us anyway). But still. No effort was made to keep the friendship strong.
I give up.
I'm no longer looking for "new friends" via the internet. At least on Gaia. If someone wants to know me that badly or keep in touch? There's the PM button.
I'd love to keep cosplaying (at least for myself if not for the small group of friends I have left) and if anyone wants? Hit me up for a knee slappin' time.
I'm sorry I didn't wake up sooner. But it's time to start acting more mature.
It's been a cruel lesson... something enough to break the heart. Silly enough even if it's just online. But I can't lie to myself anymore.
Actions speak louder than words. And the actions that I've seen are quite ugly. It's not worth it for me to get angry (angrier) than I have. "Revenge" is out of the question and a no-no. Behind a screen. There's not much I can do except choose.
Choose to be honest or choose to lie.
A lot of people lie... not news to you. But it was to me. Why? I thought some of these people actually cared. That was my mistake. No, I'm not saying "lol it's cool cause it's the internet, not their fault". When you trust someone and you talk to them on a personal level... it should be friendship that keeps you together.
In stead. For most of my "Friendships" I noticed only trolling and fooling around kept us together. And the moment I stopped? I didn't see as many of my friends as I should have.
Does it hurt? Yeah. Will I keep prolonging the illusion? No... I didn't want to believe any of it was true. I lashed out a few times to people. Then we made up (some of us anyway). But still. No effort was made to keep the friendship strong.
I give up.
I'm no longer looking for "new friends" via the internet. At least on Gaia. If someone wants to know me that badly or keep in touch? There's the PM button.
I'd love to keep cosplaying (at least for myself if not for the small group of friends I have left) and if anyone wants? Hit me up for a knee slappin' time.
I'm sorry I didn't wake up sooner. But it's time to start acting more mature.
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