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Piece of mind...
A collection of my poems aw well as maybe a story of mine that im working on....
Two Souls One Life.
Marissa:


As soon as it happened, I knew it was a mistake that I could never fix. The pain, the blackness, the unending anxiety that seemed to keep pulling me down. All of that, it made me make the decision to go through with the new mistake. The date is Monday march 8, 2010, and today I made the biggest mistake of my now ended life. As my body hung lifelessly from the dead mans neck-tie, its heart still beat, the body itself still lived..but it was not Alive. Its soul was missing, I was missing. T-that thing up there, that miserable creature wasn't me... it couldn't be me, I am marissa, the girl who doesn't get depressed..everyone's rainbow. I glanced up at the body handing up there as pain struck my core, that was me, I am just a spirit now, a ghost. I put my hands on my head as I began to feel sick, this wasn't right, I thought all of the pain was supposed to leave right after I died, apparently what everyone said wasn't true. I screamed as scenes fast forwarded before me, my shell being taken to the hospital. I watched with teary eyes as the people I loved began to weep and cry at my disappearance, my absence. Something inside me was pulling me far away from here though, I followed it, letting the invisible string pull my floating body where I needed to go. I was taken to a familiar place, a house? Whose house though, I feel as if I should remember it all to well. I felt the invisible string pulling me forwards as I stood on the outer sidewalk, I looked up at the screen door, the patio light was on, it was late out here, where ever I was. The string tugged harder on my chest, as if it was trying to force my heart out and into this house, I moves stiffly forwards, this new place was so weird.

I came to the door and reached out as if I were going to touch the knob when something strange happened, the scenery around me changed and contorted before I found myself in a hall way, there were pictures on the walls, paintings actually, I glanced at them for only a moment before a door opened. I looked at the bright light coming out from behind the frame, was this the light that everyone spoke of? I turned and lifted my hand before my eyes as if trying to block some of the brightness. A shadowy figure appeared in the light "g-god?" i found myself saying despite how strange and silly it sounded. The light around the figure appeared to dim rather quickly revealing a girl, she looked so familiar, the expression on her face was twisted with disbelief and horror and sadness. I didnt understand how such a beautiful girl could ever look so sad, I instinctively took a step forwards "Are you alright?" I asked reaching out as the girl walked stiffly but quickly towards me, heading for the open room at the end of the hall. "Hey miss-" I tried to say before the girl stumbled and came right for me, I squealed and blocked my face with my hands, expecting an impact but instead feeling something similar to someone going through me, it was a really uncomfortable feeling. I took a breath to center myself as I peeked out from behind my arm seeing no one in front of me. I looked around my front before glancing over my shoulder and seeing the girl walk swiftly up and out the hallway into the giant room there. Watching her move sparked something inside me, almost as if someone had shocked me with electricity, my skin began to tingle and pictures, no, memories began to flash before my eyes, all of which had that girl in it, her and I, her and I, her and I, that's what all the memories had.





 
 
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