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While I was home on break I bought two more volumes of Life that I found so I almost have 1-9. DX I need four more then I'm done with that adventure. I also bought Kaleido Star Second Season, Disc 2 dvd. I'm watching it right now, since I've had trouble sleeping. I keep crying for no reason at all. I've been really sad. Haha, sad for a long time. XD Haha!

SO SO SO I miss volleyball. No matter how many people tell me that I'm not fat it doesn't have an effect on me. My mind is stuck on the fact that I feel fat. DX Don't comment on this part... I'm just sharing my personal feelings so you know something that bothers me on a daily basis. I look in the mirror and don't get why people think I'm special or ever was. CX HAHA!

I'm drawing and that makes me happy. So does talking to people on here. My roleplay friends give me some kind of communication. Otherwise I shut myself away in the room. San Francisco is really cold. I might start biking again on good days and working out extra to get in shape. I only worry that I'll keep up this "not eating much" thing. [/ sigh] STUPID!

I didn't get the chance to tell the guy and I'm chickening out again. I don't want to tell him anymore. My passion is fading. Perhaps it's one of the reasons I feel so sad? I dunno...

So to replace Dev, since I couldn't talk to her, I made a character named after her. They don't act the same but somehow it eases the pain to see her name all the time. It really does help with the separation -w- For Christy we talk every now and then via text or Gaia so we're still good. Andrea and I text and facebook. Haha! We're so silly! XD I've been reminded a lot of my old friends, that are no longer my friends, so maybe that's another reason I have been so sad XD HAHA!

[/ rolls around on the ground] School is okay... I'm actually doing well in History class. Our newest book is interesting >3<

[/ flails] Next poke'mon to draw is going to be Totodile >3< He's so adorable in my pic. I just need to color it! XD

[/ cries softly]