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Moving is an unwelcome necessary. We all know that for the most part...but why does it have to happen? All the time someone's moving...having to restart and meet new people and completely change their lifestyle. Why does it have to happen so often to some of us...like me? I've not stayed in one place for more than 2 years at a time until this last time...but now...in the prime of my comfort and time here....I have to leave again.

My biology teacher Mr. Schmidli said that you've gotta live and move on and not be stuck in memories and the past...but that's proving harder than I thought. I know I have to do that, but why...why does everything have to change so much? Memories run through my head of the last time I moved, when I met Alissa, being saved, meeting Vinny, the bad things that happened with him...the good things, then running to Alissa when everything feel apart then...but running to Joey more...and remembering when I met him...remembering when I got my things....just everything...just seems to...vanish. Everything that once was is no more. The most important part of my life....is just....gone. Everything that made me who I am...everything that put me through the hardest...everything that earned my respect...

What I just want from this point forward...is just to...be loved...by Jesus, by my lover, by my family, by my best friend...the most undying love of all....because it never goes away, it can never be destroyed, because even if a person that loved you died, you know they loved you when they did and that sets it in stone, they'll love you forever.