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the revised version to the previously called poem 'because she is weak'
still bad though -__-;;

A Boy, A Girl and Me and A Boy

I know it's so cliche
the story of the girl and the boy
she likes him
but he doesn't like her.

it's always been this way
one-sided crushes.
she tries not to
let it bother her anymore

but this story isn't exactly completely generic,
It has it's own few tweaks here and there.
this time, the girl is me,
and I'm someone that's too soft
I'm too weak to defend
my own heart.

Because It all started
when the two of us were but in band camp
it was during our unity group activities
did I begin to like him.

and as the time soon started to progress
my feelings for him grew
I tried so hard
to deny what I knew was true.

And now I am left
alone with no one by my side
because He doesn't like me
the way I like him.

or maybe it's not like that
but it would never work out.
because I had confessed to him
one friday night.

I never did tell him my true feelings though,
the way I feel when he's around.
I've told many others
but not many know for sure.

because I know that whenever he was around
My face would flush a pink rosy shade
and whenever he was mad at me,
I would end up crying my eyes out at the mere thought.

And at the mere notion of the action and this pathetic sight
I would want to stop and stay strong
but no matter how hard I tried,
I could not dry my eyes.

I didn't want this to happen
but it couldn't be helped
I couldn't stop my heart from falling all over again.
Couldn't stop my heart from being thrown around once more.

The barriers I so badly want to build around my heart
come crashing down with no effort.
The reason why, is quite simple really.
It's because I am weak.