i feel so happy...yet i feel like crying....i feel ashamed...yet....not....i wanna die....yet...im afraid of death....im tempted to start cutting myself again....but.....i promised.....i dont wanna be here....i wanna be happy...but it seems like happy was never ment to exist in my life....why is that?! i want to smile! i want to know what joy REALLY feels like! to be happy and not worry whats around the corner!
*sigh* i wish no1 would read these...cuz i normally get a " your life isnt THAT bad..." or "people have it worse" i try to make ppl happy...but I only get hurt.......am i really selfish? is my mom telling the truth....guess so....
im just a spoiled princess a** who says her life is misrable and she gets what ever she wants....
*starts crying* is this really true? if so...i should die...i dont wanna be like this...but yet...last time I checked...I paid for it if i wanted something....
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there iz no hope and no life thats perfect.......live a good life.....or suffer the pain of failure. Your time's running out...you better hurry!
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No crying. ;~;
*hugs*
No depression either.