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my words...my pain..my life....
Escape from the darkness to the light...
Wandering through a hateful and horrible world..
Where is love..peace..or anything to care for..?
Alone is how I feel when I dream of something better..
Wanting to be in a world deserted of pain and suffering..
Everywhere I look I see hurt..death..pain..anguish..and so much more...
We live a life of lies...
Lying to those we know...for this life is nothing but a false being..
to live is to hate and to love..but is love real or just a lie?..
For people hurt those they say they love all the time...
so how could one truely love someone..is it just a false feeling..?
And what is love..was it ever real or just a word created for the hell of it..
We say "I love you" to so many..are we lying to them..or..to ourselves..
Was this world ever peaceful...or did greed always live here..
We say "we come in peace"...is that true...when we have killed so many of our own kind..
....ALL LIES...nothing more....
Wanting to escape from this place..to go to paradise...
Not a paradise of sunny beaches hot weather..and whatever..
but a paradise of ture life..a true world..
Where people are not hurt by those they love..
Where we will finally understand what love is truely..
Wanting to live...for knowing the wonders it will bring...
....life....
...Instead we live in this world...
where people do not understand the true meaning of life...
....to live....
Is this world even worth living for...
....I did not know anymore....
I used to think death would be nice...
For my heart has been filled with so much darkness...
I just could not bare another moment to live...
but weakness washed over me...paralyzing me...
...unable to do a thing...to end my life...
my heart flooded with darkness and pain...ready to brust...
...then in my darkness a light shined...
at first a small speck...but it was persistent...
it grew and grew..until the darkness that surrounded me..disappeared...
...not even a darkness of my shadow...
I was afraid to look at this light..."would it burn my eyes"...I feared...
Slowly I raised my head and looked up towards it...oh how beautiful it glowed...
it tore me out of the darkness and pain...
The feeling to just end still lingers in me..I feel it at times..
but its voice is gone..meaning though still there it is powerless to pull me back inside my darkness...
That light was my savior...my guardian...my reason to live...
I owe my life to it...but it does not want my life...just my love of life...
My belief was this world we live in is not worth living for..
but now I see there is still some beauty left...to live for...
But not if our greed consumes the last of it...we must fight to keep what little is left..alive..forever..
Do not shut that beauty..that glow..of true life out just yet..
save it...from ourselves...from the greed in us...
It is what we must do to keep from being fully consumed..
by a power greater then we thought...
This world still has some things to live for...hopefully...forever...you decide...
...if you are willing to keep such beauty alive...

writer's note:
wrote this after having a huge fight with my mom,just had so much emotions in me at that time..this is the result of it...what I write is true..maybe some who know me knows what I truely mean by my words...maybe you won't..i dont know..but it doesnt matter if you dont...for my words dont need to be truely known by others...





 
 
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