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my words...my pain..my life....
Why...?
Where are you?
I look around for you but never seem to find you....why?
And when I dream of you your always a blur..why?
Did I ever truely know you? Or was that just a lie?
I look up towards the heavens to find you....but still I see nothing
How come?
Are you afraid to see me or me to see you?
How strange either way....Don't you think so?
Why must your face always be a blur?
Why have so many seen it clrealy except for me....?
I cry sometimes when I think of you and your blurry face...
I guess its better to see a blurry face then no face at all,right?
And why do you never answer me?
I ask so many questions and what do I hear....nothing....
Its just a world of silence....
Which is fine by me but I would love to hear your voice...
at least just once....why not one time...how wrong is that?
Wanting to hear you....
I thought I knew who you were but I think my thoughts were wrong.
For who are you truely? Your just a stranger to me thats all...
That's pretty sad too since what you actually are to me...
but either you never cared for me...or it was I who didn't..
Well there is one other option it was he who didn't care...
He didn't want me to see your face or hear your voice.
He didn't want us to meet..to hug...to talk to each other..to laugh together..to smile..to cry together..And so much more we could have shared together
Only if he didn't rip you from my side to take you away from everyone..
Why did he do that?
I can't understand why...I think and think but no answer comes to me
I wish you were here with me to help me understand this...the why...
But you are not for he took you.
Do you know that many times I wished he took me instead of you..
A sacrifice to save you...but still with that we could never meet.
Every world I think of either you are here or i'm there...you there and me here...
Never meeting...always missing each other......
Do you cry? Am I a blur to you or am I clear? Do you wonder why?
Or do you understand why?
So many questions...and zero answers...
I hate crying I only cry when thinking of you, so I ask..why do I?
no answer....how predictable...always quite you should be a mime..
That made me laugh...for then I would see a white powdery blur.
Well I'm tired of crying, of asking unanswered questions...
just tired...I want things to end...I want to end....
To be with you in your world by your side...I dont mind...
what i'm giving up if it means I will get to know and finally meet you..
So let me...just let me fade away from this world to yours...
We can be in your silent world, if you want to be silent.
Just let me see your face in your world..your quite face...your face...
That's all I want if you can only offer me one thing..
So I could look at the man who is you..that of my blood.
Well me of yours actually...
I say "Goodbye" to my world and "Hello" to yours and you.
I see me running towards you hugging you for the first time looking...
seeing your face...then you smile and say "Hello sweetheart"....
Hugging me tighter...forever together....

writer's note:
wrote this after having a dream about writing a poem about this person i never knew but should have know..i know its complicated..just thought i would explain why i wrote this though..






User Comments: [1]
fearless_hunter
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Wed Jul 01, 2009 @ 07:59am


wow thats very good, did you wright that your self.


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