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Have you ever been in love with more than one person at once?
If so, on a scale of 1-10, how tough is it for you?
Have you ever had somebody love you that you don't love back, and never could or would?
If so, what would you say to the person who loves you?
Have you ever been told you were loved by someone to find out later on it was a lie?
If so, how long did you cry about it?
Have you ever fallen out of love with someone who loved you and broken their heart because of it?
If so, do you still feel like a monster?
Have you ever been in love with someone, and they love you back, but then you just wanted them to stop loving you so your life would be easier?
If so, what would you tell them?
Have you ever been in a relationship that's going nowhere, but for some reason isn't ending?
If so, what would you do about it?
How much pain has love caused you in general?
Love is practically my reason for living...but it hurts.
I would never dream of giving up on it, all these things I've listed, I've either been through them, or am still going through them.
I feel trapped and there are only two people I can tell, only one of whom I trust enough to listen to their advice, but neither of whom can help me out.
I'm not really writing this so that all my readers take pity on me... I was just venting because I'm having a lot of guy problems and it's making me so angry and frustrated and when I get like that I just need to vent.
I wish I could mention names, but I really can't afford to.