Not entirely sure what i'm even going to say in this little "Blog" i guess you could call it...despite the fact that i doubt anyone will ever read this...
There's alot of things in my life that i'm not sure about, alot of things that i can't explain...and also alot of things that i don't even WANT to know how to explain
Some would begin to read this and automatically think that i'm just a whiny (sp?) little whore, just begging for some attention. And somedays i'd agree with you. because most of the time that's how i feel...
Eyes staring at me, because they KNOW what happened
Laughter because they know
They say that time heals all wounds.
i don't think they knew true pain.
lately i feel like i've been crying too much, been too distant, still yearning for what i can't or shouldn't have which ever...still desiring to be something or someone that i'm not and something i can never become.... I still cry at the thoughts of what i've done. sure time has passed...and yet i can not forget...whether i can't or i won't is another story entirely....
i don't know what love is, i never have and i feel at this rate i never will....I don't know what being grown up is, i don't know how to act i don't know how to speak appropriately. i don't know what to do in the face of adversity...there's a lot of things in life that we are not meant to know...those are not them.
what is a girl to do?
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