Wow, I havent written here in a long freakin time....
I had an interesting thought/memory tonight...Doing ritual at night can be kinda dangerous. I dont care what anyone says, if a guy is walking down the street with ever intent to mess with me as I'm doing ritual on my porch, no amount of sacred space is gonna keep him out (This almost happened...not safe). I don't want to hike it all the way out to bfe at the middle of the night, at least not until I get my car, and even then you run the risk of bumping into a homeless Bob.
I was sorta pissy the next few days due to the interruption and I remembered back to my high school days and when I was struggling with being one of the schools witches. It wasnt easy, things sucked before Sparkletard showed up, I was still heavily in the broom closet and more afraid of word getting back to my mom than anyone being a #$^&*@ to me in the halls. I remembered that I was dating a friend at the time...he was sorta big, and if my words wern't enough or someone was giving me more trouble than I needed, he would come in and rough em up (usually mentally). Not that I couldnt do it myself if pushed to it, but it also helped that I wasnt alone completely, he supported me.
Times have changed, I really dont care who knows anymore (cept the usual few. God knows work would find a convenient reason to fire me and it wouldnt be the real reason why ya know?), but real, physical danger freaks me out. I wanna do my rituals, be all nekkid outside, do my thang without the fear some drunkards gonna amble up the hill after me.
I was thinking...my boyfriend totally digs what I do, with a total "knight in shining armor" mentality. Its like...he wants to join in...but doesnt know/wouldnt have the paitence nor the spirituality for my kind of stuff (which is totally ok with me. I like that hes not completely spiritual). Perhaps...giving him a huge stick and positioning him on the outside of my circles and hang a little sign around his neck that says "Protector" (It would have to be something tres masculine...)...
I dont wanna call him a Whitelighter...as its 1)dumb 2) ripping off a show that we're already trying to seperate ourselves from and 3)already used to describe a special sort of fluffy bunny...but the job description is somewhat similar. Knowing my boy, he'd want a sweet little ceremony, I'd have to make the huge beating stick all rune-d up and give him some sort of name...I love his innocent patronizing sometimes. I love how dozens of Pagans would find this idea totally offensive.
Seriously though, I dont wanna get "shanked". If I can prevent it, I'm gonna do it and everyone can just shut up, go home,get on Gaia and talk about how awesome they are. xd
 Toast_Francais · Thu Jun 18, 2009 @ 06:36am · 0 Comments |
