I've been doing pretty good lately. I haven't been as angsty/depressed/angry as I have been. Infact as bored as I've been its been peaceful for once.
I'm glad I'm in Colorado at the moment or I'm afraid I'd once again lose my mind. Now, the only thing that worries me is when I go back am I just going to fall to the bottom of the pit again?
Well, then again things are changing around me like mad so who knows. My father is going to ask his girlfriend to marry him when we go to Florida to help her and her kids move to Colorado. My mother is getting married in Oct. to my godfather. It feels like my dad is trying to get me to move in with him. But, I don't really want to but its not like he is forcing me. It just seems to me what he is hoping for. -.-
Most likely, I'll stay in Arizona. There are a few things and people holding me there. ^.- And unless they let me down to a point, almost to where I was before, I won't be leavng. I know I said in my last entry that I don't expect my friends to be there always for me but there is a point that they should be there or at least not be jerks. XD >< I'm also worried that when I go back I will still be left out as childish as it sounds. It just hurts to feel that way and to know that you aren't wanted there.
But anyways, I'm doing well. Worrying about things like normal and being hopeful about other stuff. ^^
~Rose9245
P.S. very realistic dreams are creepy. o.o Even if nothing bad happens in them.
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