I am slowly realizing I need to grow up and move on with my life. I keep holding onto things that will never be. Getting annoyed and depressed over trivial things will not help me in the least. I'm slowly learning that I need to be more independant. Until now I thought I was but since I've been hanging out less and less with my friends I have slowly been opening my eyes to the truth around me.
As much as I might want to hold onto things I have to let them go. I cannot control everything in my life but that does not mean I can't do anything. I can't dependant on people such as my friends to always be there for me. Because in all honestly, there is rarely ever a person who will ever be there 100% for you. And regardless to me it seems rather cruel to expect them to be. So, I'm just going to keep going and if I fade from my friends well I hope I don't but there are no guardinties in life besides you live and one day you'll die.
I have a hard time controlling my emotions so that’s the next thing I'm going to work on... I'm also making myself a promise. A day after I get back from Colorado, I'm going to get a job. I need to grow up. I'm not a child anymore and so becoming self reliant is required.
But, I'm going to do what I can to do what I can. I have the feeling that I'm about to begin on a road full of emotional attacks (from myself) and confusion if I wasn't already. I'll keep being myself and keep trying to improve what I can.
~ Rose9245
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You see some people refuse to help themselves, and it makes me saddned at the same time frustrated. Because from what I learned in all my experiences, there is always something to look forward in life, and that there is always a way to help a fallen doubt rise again.
We may not know each other for long, but if you ever need a friend to confide or talk to. I am always here.