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need to type feelings out...
well...yeah.. it's kinda sad for me.. I dun like talking to my friends about it since i guess it's kinda of annoying when i repeat Dx (like my mother...*cough*) And I dun want them to think into my problem when they have heir own problems.... And I dun want my problem to be added on theirs o3o; Blahh if that makes sense Dx I thank all of them who tried to comfort me down =] it really helped guys ^^ Im happy I have friends like you in real <3
Well...I guess everyone knows my boyfriend broke up with me... It's cool! Im cool with it... But how much I loved him is the problem...I'm controlling my feelings..But my heart won't just stop... Yeah, that day... 4/26.. I cried so hard on that day... I don't know if i'm happy or not... Either because my mom insulted me or the way my heart responded toward his kind words.... I understand his feelings... so I have to let him go.. Maybe he found a prettier azn girl out there other than me ;3 lol i'm a fugly a** tomboy, and I could shout it out to the crowd if I have to. But looks dun matter anymore... im just being.. me..
I love him so much, when will i ever get over it? I tried and tried.. I feel like ripping my head off!!! Dx I tried avoiding him, but my heart tells me to go see him.. Whenever I see him, I'm happy! When he's with another girl i dun know, prettier than me, I break down! When I make an eye contact, I look away because I'm afraid to face him! BLAH THIS SUCKS BALLS MAN! Dx I would like it back when it was... But it's partially my fault for confessing... BUT I DID TELL HIM TO BE FRIENDS ONNLLLLYYY!! And yeah... "I thought?" BULLSHIT, that got me pissed! I'm stupid enough to say yes and he's stupid enough to ask me out when he's not even sure!!! He should either think it over before saying anything! He should think over whenever his feelings are true or not! I HATE IT WHEN THEY TOY AROUND WITH PEOPLE! "I THOUGHT I WOULD LIKE YOU?!" ********! I need to find something to get my mind off this... Well..being a fangirl isn't so bad... I mean this guy named tony from HMR, who hardstyles and shuffles, yeah he's cool xD (lol, reference from Eunice's vid), hehehehe~ ;D
gahhh.....now I made myself pissed.. AGAIN!... OVER THE ******** NET!!... yeah.. o3o; teehee xD Wheeee.... and im just making myself sad ;~; DAMMIT DAVID! T~T I dun blame him but.... common sense, think things over before you act!
thank you for your time reading this... Now u just wasted 5 minutes of ur ******** time! Have a great day.
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