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I plan to drag this entry out for a while... Mostly stuff I've had on my mind for a while, which other stuff I've probably never even touched on before in my journal. Anyway here goes... I write songs, some of you know that, and I've been meaning to write more followups to the ones I've wrote, I just haven't really had the inspiration as well as the will to bother doing it. Most of my work comes from anger, taken out on paper... I don't know why, but it works well when I am done venting. Most of my work is excellent, I got tons of great reviews from quite a few people over the years and I'd like to use them to get them even further then just words scripted on a piece of paper... So in the coming weeks, I should have more completed, as far as public release of the lyrics, they are still private editions only, and I have the rights for all of the ones I wrote, so all goes well. I'm looking into learning guitar, I'd love to learn acoustic, mostly because I can put what I write into my own music when I learn... It'd be pretty cool. I did a recording of some guitar skills a while back, but I misplaced it >.>... And then it was a shitty acoustic anyway -Sigh- I need the real stuff.

College is coming soon... I can hardly wait, I'm so excited to be getting into something I love, a mix of computers and coding! Weeeeee!!! I'm so looking forward to it, and I'm glad I won't be living on Campus >.> It'd suck, not to mention lots of transportational issues... And places to work as well. I don't really want to work downtown while I'm going to school... It'd suck, and it'd be busy as hell <.<. So we'll see... I don't think I'll be going to apply on Tuesday, I need to gather some stuff together before I bother to return down there. I should be doing that all week razz Looks like I don't need to focus on a job just yet! School only! And I can't wait to go back to school... It's not something I ever thought I'd say, but I'd be glad to return to classes... Only this time It'd be a lot longer and I'd be doing stuff I like doing in that period of time. Like I said in my last entry, I'm going for an Associate first, then I'll focus on Bachelor's... It'd be better that way, I finish one, and I can head into the second. What's better, is I'd have 2 instead of 1... Not that it makes much difference in getting the Associates >.> Either way the Bachelor's going to be better and get me into more places then the Associates... It'd just look better on a wall I'd think ^^;.

Me and Heather had a decent weekend, dispite it being shortened by me going to check out the school with the tour I went to. Other then that it was a very decent weekend, we got lots of stuff done that will help me to step up to the future a little. I'm worried about paying for all my classes once I graduate from college... I'm worried about it taking a while... We'll see. With the college stuff, I'd really like to get a new computer to use... One that's using Microsoft Windows XP, has Microsoft Office, and is USB ready and s**t like that... I could careless how cheap it is... Just as long as it has a decent set of Gig's for memory... Close to 100GB at least, That way I can put some games and stuff on it for leisurely activities. Gotta love my Starcraft and Roller Coaster Tycoon 1. So yeah, I'm looking into getting a new PC! I hope I can get one on like monthly payments, I hope my mom gets me one, it'd be a great Christmas present, to be honest, it's all I really want. Just a PC I can have and use at my own free will... Because my sister dosen't really let me on as much as I need to be online to check various things. It'd be better that way, hopefully my Mom can get her hands on a PC deal that she pays for monthly, close to like $15-20 should be good... Looks like I'd need to cut my Iced Tea out to help pay for it -Sigh- ;_; Poor Tea... (Yes it was a Joke... I'd NEVER give up Turner's Tea... Never...).

I'm looking into getting my Dad back here to help me drive some more, he hasn't been here in about a week and it's really starting to get on my nerves. I need him here to help me drive, end of story. I don't want to learn to drive the Ram, because it's so huge I'd be afraid to Parallel Park in it, it would be such a pain in the neck to bother with it. -Sigh- I wish he'd get off his butt and stop kissing up to everyone to try to get back into my mom's life, it's really getting old... I mean REALLY... Can I get an Amen to that? The old fart never learns, I swear... And it's sad to say I feel sorry for him, but then again all he's after is sympathy anyway... Pathetic geezer... -Shakes head- Grow up old man... Your brain's like a dented can of baked beans... Not worth spilling them because they are so low quality, people want one that's not dented... (Lame way to word it, but who cares... I'm sleepy, so deal with it).

I need to lose some weight, I think when spring comes I'll be walking around the block daily, it depends on college though... I might be better of just taking my walking idea and turn around and just get my exercise by constantly going to the college everytime I have classes... I'd be walking, and it'd be good for me. We'll see... But I need to lose some, I'd like to lose maybe 20-30 pounds, just to look a little more thinner. I'm not really complaining about my looks... I mean I don't really care much, but seeing as the growing epidemic in America is Diabetes... I don't really want to come down with it, you know? So yeah... More exercise is definatly a must do. Meh... I need to get my transcripts from my High School... >.< -Sigh- I don't wanna go baaaaack theeeeeeere... Oh well, I'll go shove my Diploma in their faces! All the people who thought I'd never ammount to amything in life... You'll be getting a wake up call... My Diploma taken to your office for a very well needed visit to see you. Hahaha! The best is yet to come kids.

I think after college I'll be looking for a job near here for a while... You know? Get an apartment close and stay for a while until I have enough money to go somewhere. Me and Heather have been talking the past couple months, and we don't really want to rush out and get a place unprepared. We want to go to school and get the stuff we need to have a good life. She motivates me... She inspires me... She has faith in me, and I'm so glad to have her with me, we're helping each other. And without her, I'd probably not have got this far... I mean in some ways, I might have. I mean everyone helped me out motivation wise just to graduate, without them, I don't think I'd ever be able to do it... But I think above all, she's kept me stable. I woulda lost it if she wasn't around. Like too much work to do, teaching myself to do everything. At times it got pretty overwhelming for me, and I never thought I'd get done with it... But in the end, I buckled down and got everything completed. Thanks to everyone, I did what I had to do to make my future better, and I could never thank everyone enough for supporting me. But after college, getting back to what I was saying. I think we'll get a place together when we are both ready, I'm not ready to leave home just yet, I got tons of stuff left to do and learn. But in the end, I think it'll all work out. I sure hope so... We'll see where this leads me ^_^, catch you guys on the flip.