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A documentation of a human's existence.
Several years worth of entries. Not routinely updated.
It doesn't have a title.
Usually writing in journals and whatnot is my escape. It makes me feel better to vent to people, or rather, not to people, but to this blank computer screen that won’t judge me. And lately I haven’t been myself, I openly admit that. And yes, I’ve been pretty bitchy to lots of people lately. I admit that too. Ugh.. I can’t even write about what’s upsetting me. It’s ridiculous, really. I mean, little things shouldn’t upset me. But they do. Surely everyone else didn’t even pay attention to it. But for some reason it really bothered me. As much as I’d love to rant openly about this, I’m not really angry about it. Just kind of…disappointed. Here I thought maybe I was right about something, and I truly do hate to be proved wrong. Seems I’ve been wrong a lot lately. Do you ever think that maybe you’re going crazy? Or that you’re seeing the world wrong? Like maybe other people are seeing it different from you, but you just weren’t made right to view it the way your supposed to..hypothetically. ha. I hate it when people speak in “hypothetical” terms because obviously whatever it is they are talking about it really happening, otherwise why the heck would you bring it up? Of course, I could make up totally random hypothetical cases, just for the pure joy of it. Here, like lets say, “hypothetically” that my ex-best friend went out with my ex-boyfriend who got back together with me last month, but then broke up with me again and I got angry and started screaming at him so he dumped pudding all over my hair, so I threw a cookie at him and it knocked him unconscious and now I have to go to court because my ex is sueing me. What do I do? Hahaha… I actually enjoyed that. Nothing like nonsense to make your day just slightly less crappy. Oh, but apparently my socks beg to differ, because they clearly say “no nonsense” on them. I’ve lost you now, haven’t I? I lose myself sometimes too. Sometimes I wonder if people can read my mind. Maybe there’s some secret organization of mind readers who get together every now and then and listen in on people’s minds like they’re radio stations. I’ll try to keep my station interesting, for their sake.
I wonder what impact I’ll ever make on the world, if any at all. Oh. I just broke my rule of no erasing what I typed. Too bad too, that might have given you something interesting to talk about. Then maybe this would all make sense. Maybe I’ll just erase this whole note. I don’t know. Maybe it reveals too much. Ah, what the heck. I’ll go ahead and post it. I’d hate to see this go to waste.
~krissy.






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Cynthiasideways
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commentCommented on: Wed Feb 25, 2009 @ 12:47am
No, not too revealing for some creeper online. If i didn't know what was up, then i'd totally be lost so... (i saw a girl wiht no nonsense socks today!)of course some people can read minds eek well, when they know what the person is like, or can think along the same terms. Just pure mindreading of anyone? i dunno...sometimes i think someone is reading my mind from across the room, then i start mind speaking to them. Hmmm...impact on world...well, i think about that a lot. I tried asking my mom about her thoughts on this, rolleyes , not very helpful. I think the impact i find for myself is to leave my impression of love on very many, offer something of myself to make their lives better, the big picture though, trying to get them to heaven. That's my goal, since it's the best place to be, then i guess the best thing you could do for a person is help them get to heaven. I have trouble thinking of life outside the earth. Ummm...a lot, but it's what i'm living for i guess. I'm here, to test myself, to guide others, and maybe have a little fun. Gotta scaboot for now, but we can always talk.


commentCommented on: Sat Feb 28, 2009 @ 09:57pm
wait, celeste, are you serious? you think people can actually read minds?
i don't think so.



Meowh
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commentCommented on: Sat Feb 28, 2009 @ 10:59pm
i dunno. maybe they can? maybe not? how would we ever know?


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