Sitting here in that old tank top and boy shorts I used to wear to sleep.
I'm working on an essay, but I can't concentrate on some fictional character's courage.
I've got him on my mind.
Seems that he's all I think about now.
What's he doing?
Is he alright?
How is he?
All these questions popping in my head as I scribble on about how Beneatha wants to become a female doctor when it's impossible and we all know it.
Everyone says I shouldn't feel this way about him anymore.
That I should move on.
He already has.
But.
I can't.
Every moment I'm crying I just want to run into his arms and for him to tell me this was just some sick joke.
And if it is?
I really wouldn't mind.
I'd laugh and hide the little bit of pain I still had left.
Sadly, this is no sick joke.
He's serious and I need to move on.
I'm doing better though.
Dancing is taking away a lot of the pain.
I have to get this essay done though.
Seems this character is a lot like me..
Courageous and indipendednt.
Free spirited..
That's another question popping in my head.
Everyone says I'm so free spirited, but I never truly believed it.
Someone, fill me in.
I guess you all know me better than I know myself.
I'm working on an essay, but I can't concentrate on some fictional character's courage.
I've got him on my mind.
Seems that he's all I think about now.
What's he doing?
Is he alright?
How is he?
All these questions popping in my head as I scribble on about how Beneatha wants to become a female doctor when it's impossible and we all know it.
Everyone says I shouldn't feel this way about him anymore.
That I should move on.
He already has.
But.
I can't.
Every moment I'm crying I just want to run into his arms and for him to tell me this was just some sick joke.
And if it is?
I really wouldn't mind.
I'd laugh and hide the little bit of pain I still had left.
Sadly, this is no sick joke.
He's serious and I need to move on.
I'm doing better though.
Dancing is taking away a lot of the pain.
I have to get this essay done though.
Seems this character is a lot like me..
Courageous and indipendednt.
Free spirited..
That's another question popping in my head.
Everyone says I'm so free spirited, but I never truly believed it.
Someone, fill me in.
I guess you all know me better than I know myself.
