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he makes me cry, every night
all alone in my bed i hide my tears from the world.
to me crying is a weakness, so i must not show it to any one.
not even him, especially him.
he is in love with another girl.
it breaks my heart every time i see him walking down the hall holding hands with her.
every time i see him kiss her my world becomes colder
so soon i become like the arctic, not showing emotion.
letting no one into my heart i slowly drift away from the world.
i never see him, for i always avoid him.
seeing him would make all the walls i have built come tumbling down.
yet when i do it hurts how he doesnt even glance my way.
always looking at her and her alone, it burns.
dee somewhere in this scarred and bleeding heart i hate him.
my heart says love him while my head says hate him.
one day i hope some one can pull this dark shard from my heart.
it may hurt but at least i wont have to have the constant ache there.
every time my heart beats, blood cascades out.
my cold and emotionless self has to hold up.
for if anyone sees the real me i will truely have to melt.
so now that you have her dont look at me kindly.
dont tell me you love me when i know in my heart that your words are false,
goodbye forever, i hope i never see you again, my first and last love.