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12.10.2008

Think back to the last person you held hands with; Would you kiss them?
Naw.



Whats the wallpaper to your cellphone?
something from kim


When did you first get myspace?
like 7/8th grade


Are you drifting away from any friends?
naw man. i'm not drifting. i took a running jump away from them.



What are you listening to?
My favorite highway <3


Which one of your cousins is closest in age with you?
Anna


What are you doing tonight?
calling Josh so i can just be done with this whole mess.



Do you miss anyone?
dearly.




Are you wearing socks?
naw man.




Do you have anything in your pockets right now?
nope.




Do you believe ex's can really ever be just friends?
i really really really don't want to be his friend.




Ever kissed someone who smoked?
nope.



Someone on your mind right now?
a few someones.



Would you consider yourself to be spoiled?
no.




Did you go to sleep last night smiling?
crying actually.




Anyone told you a secret this week?
i tell kim tons of secrets.




When was the last time you bought something?
a couple weekends ago.




In the next 4 months what are you looking forward to most?
hopefully some sort of tragedy where i die and everyone gets what they want.




Does a kiss make you feel better when you're angry?
nope.




Whats the color of the thing you are sitting on right now?
tan?


Was last New Year's enjoyable?
naw.



Are you high?
no, i live vicariously through kim and she's not doing much right now.



Is something bothering you right now?
oh ferr sure.




Do you like winter?
yeah


Have you ever walked on the beach at night?
yeah

Do you have trust issues?
sometimes.




Do you have a good relationship with your parents?
not at all.



Do you have a best friend to lean on?
kim and anna and melissa.



What was the very first thing you thought this morning?
i really just want to walk into traffic.


What did you do today?
continuously wished I was just dead.



Will this weekend be a good one?
honestly? probably not.



If you could do something differently, would you go back?
Mhm.

=/


Do you fall for people easily?
never again.



If you could move somewhere else, would you?
no.
it's the perfect distance from him



Did you like anyone last summer?
nope.




Where will you be two hours from now?
sleeping.



Can you make yourself sneeze?
naw man. but that would be cool.



What is your current mood?
pissed. and i'm really tired of bullshit.



What are you doing tomorrow?
school. drivers ed. hopefully playing in traffic.



Who was the last person to sleep in your bed besides yourself?
i don't know.



Do you think you would make a good boyfriend/girlfriend?
yeah. if i wanted to be.



Whose bedroom were you in last?
mine.



Why do you feel the way you feel?
because god hates me. and i hate my life. and i hate boys.



Who was the last person you yelled at?
i took kims advice and called josh. that was a huge screamfest.




How has the week been?
the worst week ever?


Is there something you wish you could tell someone but can't?
I hate you. I hate you. i really really hate you.




Do you sleep with the TV on?
noooooo.




Where are your parents right now?
like i care.




How many windows are open on your computer?
3


In the past week have you gotten sick?
yes i have.



On a scale of 1-10, how good is life?
i'd say a -23.



Is there someone who pops into your mind at random times?
yeah. i really wish that things were different.



How did you do on the last test you took?
wonderful. like always.




What food makes you sick?
pizza.




Do you get shy around the guy/girl you like?
yeah, i do.



Do you remember what you were like a year ago?
yeah



What's the weather like outside?
winter-ish.



What is your favorite holiday?
christmas.



Have you memorized your social security number?
rofl who does that?


Have you ever had a dream about people you love dying?
yeah. that happens frequently.




Do you like water?
I love water!


Do you have a pet in the room with you?
naw.



What was the last book you read?
pretties.




When is your birthday?
May 21

Do you think your best friend(s) is(are) the coolest person(people) ever?
ferr sure.



Do you talk to people on the phone or IM more?
im


What color are your eyes?
brown

Do you have your ears pierced?
once.




Do you want any more piercings?
eh.




Are you annoyed with anyone right now?
more than annoyed.




Have you ever had a panic attack?
oh of course.




What would you say to the last person you kissed?
i'm really sorry you think i did something wrong when in reality this was all your fault. you know what you did. apologize and i'll talk to you again. i'm sorry you think i'm a b***h and i probably am but i really don't deserve that. i really don't. i'm worth something to someone even if it's not you, you're not the only person on the planet. and honestly, i love how we've been best friends for 10 years and all of a sudden you go from hannah, i love you to treating me like s**t. i deserve way better than you and i'm done putting up with it.


which i just told him.