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Yesterday was a big deal. It started off like the week had been going, CRAPPY s**t FACED. I was all emo that week but after I finished my essay in a record breaking hour, everything got better. Later on in the nighr, magical Unicorn came over. She and I had chicken salsa and went to the store together with Denise too. We made brownies and pasta as well. After eating our dinner and watching Charlie Barlett, for my second time that day, we began to drink a mix of Dr. Pepper and coconut rum. I had about four glasses within 3 hours. Unicorn got really anxious and vulnerable when she came down from her buzz, which was very short because she had about three glasses within 3 hours. I got really analytical, truthful, and just hum dum.

We talked about all sorts of things from back when we were mad at each other, breaking it off, to things happening today. In these topics was Axel and long talks about current issues. We didn't even get that in depth with the Axel thing but it still stuck to us. I ended up hurting Eclipse because I was so drawn in by him. I wanted to get drunk to see him but I didn't get drunk. Although I don't think I realized that was it at the time, looking back on it now it seems like that was the reason. I was mad at myself for not being able to face him.

The Unicorn got freaked out when we went to sleep because she heard noises and felt someone, assuming it was Axel. She hid in the living room and I woke up sometime later and found her. I dragged the air mattress out there and we fell alseep out there. The living room freaks me out though because it has more spirits than the bedroom. They were not pleasant to sense but I did it to ease her worries about Axel. She has done so much for me, I can face a few little scaries for a short time for her ^^".

She believed in him and I think that's why he had the power to become 'real' that night. A part of me will always love Axel just as a part of me will always love Ry Ry and Hanzou. In time I will be over them just like Kazuki and Michael. They too will burn off my frozen heart.