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the world is falling down...is it gravity? or love?

No one is reaching out to me,
I’ve fallen much too far.
The world is reaching down for me,
But not to save my heart.

Why did you leave?
The windows of my heart
Come crashing to the ground.
The world is spinning
And I am sick,
And people are crying.
I feel like I’m dying.
Was I just not good enough?
What was wrong with me?
You left me no time,
No chance to say goodbye.
Just the cruel words,
So sickly sweet,
"I love you"
To another girl.
The words that kept me so strong
Come plummeting down with the whole world
To bury me in the rubble
With a broken heart
And a hollow soul.


If you can’t find someone better than me,
That would kill me more than anything you could say.
But even worse
Would be if you came crawling back
On hands and knees,
Thinking you could take me back and do just as you please.
I am not your toy
Or your trinket.
I am not a plaything to throw away
From day-to-day, then to pick up again.
Don’t play your mind games,
Don’t play your tricks.
I love you so much that it hurts me
When you leave me a day;
That’s gone for good.
Since you’re gone for good;
Leaving this tattoo on my heart.
This black stain that can’t be removed.
The proof you were here
And you scarred my emotions.
I don’t think this mark will ever leave,
And I don’t think I will ever see
Another boy who was quite like you,
Another boy I can really talk to.
But . . . did we ever talk?
Or was your love false from the start?
Was my love, maybe, the one that was flawed?
What was it that you found wrong with the picture?
The couple we were?
Why wouldn’t you let me fix the mistake?
Why wouldn’t you let me know you were floating away?
Why would you let me dream of us;
Let the word “we” come more naturally than “I”,
Let me be inspired by you?
Why did I let me be inspired by you?
So this cowering girl,
Flung into the darkness;
This cautious, untrusting, miserable child
With a heart stained with black,
And a mind stained with pain
That nobody could brush away.
Nobody wants this little girl;
This girl, crying in the dark.
Afraid to show her heart
Because she fears it will be burned
By the flames of false hope and fake love.
The flames of what could happen again,
Repeated and repeated, until the heart is gone.
Since your gone and not returning,
I hope you find the perfect girl
And you love her more than me,
You never leave her side
And you always are loved by her.
And you always are loved by her.
And you always are loved by me.

No one is reaching out to me,
I’ve fallen much too far.
The world is reaching down for me,
But not to save my heart.