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Ok, so it's been a while since I've written anything and I had intended to do an intro to let you know what the thing was going to consist of but my daughter has other plans. stare
So, this is the second ******** time I've tried to write this ********' thing because in the middle of the last one Sophia took it upon herself to bang on the keyboard and ******** up the window and log me out at the same time. stare stressed Let's go back, she woke me up this morning only after she'd s**t in her diaper and took it off. The diaper was smashed into the sheet of the bed and there was more s**t on her, her blankets, and her stuffed animals than there was in the diaper. She had it in her hair, on her face, on her hands and arms, on her feet and on her a**, which I didn't realize until after I sat her on the toilet to take off her outfit, which was also covered in s**t.
OK, I'm using my journal as a baby book because I don't have one, or at least one I'm willing to write in.....So, to update: she's ten months old, tries to take off the diaper the second it's put on, growls at everyone {I didn't teach her that and don't know who did, but I encourage it}, is a speed demon in her walker and chases me around the house in it from time to time, She says {in order from her first word to now} Yeah, Dada, baba, mama. She's learning "Down" and "no" She's not saying them yet, but if you tell her with a forceful enough voice, she gets the idea.......She crawls and is learning to walk. She can climb down off the couch herself. She loves cats; she chases them around the house. She can sometimes stand on her own for a few moments and she has two sharp little teeth she uses on everyone and everything she can. She will not sleep without something to suck on {bottle/pacifier} and a soft blankie to rub against her face and sometimes she won't sleep without Mommy, because Mommy's the only one with enough patience to lay with her and calm her down, unless Mima rocks her and sings to her.
I feel horrible. I was so aggravated with her this morning I smacked her, several times, most of which were harder than I meant to, on the hand and butt. I had to have my mother pick her up for a few hours to make sure I wouldn't lose it and do anything stupid. She just left.....so, I'm gonna keep writing to try and distract myself.
Woman to Woman is a mentoring program for teenage mothers to basically boost self-esteem and encourage us to not let being a teenage mother get in the way of whatever goals we may have. I've been a member since May. It's a two year program and the first meeting I went to was the September meeting. We had two speakers, the first of which was a black woman who is a captain in the....I wanna say navy? I don't remember what branch she's in and I totally forgot her name. The second woman was the one I remember because I could relate to her more, not just because she was white, but because her personality is so much like mine it's scary. She wrote a book for teenage mothers and she discussed it with us and took pictures with us and signed our books and her life story wasn't really amusing but she made it seem that way^^ She became pregnant at around 16, I think, right after her mother became pregnant with her younger sister, and now she pretty much owns her own company/organization thing, specifically dedicated to helping teen moms financially. The meeting itself wasn't as horrible as I expected. There were girls there that were younger, some older, some had kids with them, some were still pregnant. I made a new friend, Becca^^ She has a ten month old son a few days younger than Sophia and he's so cute^^ There was another mommy who brought her Sophia {four months old}. My sophia stayed home with Daddy^^ and I'm glad she did because they had all the babies in a nursery room during the meeting and I know neither Sophi nor myself would have appreciated that.
Ok, I think I'm feeling a little better, but I know I'm not done writing. I might actually write another journal entry today, but don't hold your breath. heart
Sudoku Kitten · Mon Sep 29, 2008 @ 05:41pm · 0 Comments |
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