Ok so yesterday after kaira_windblower, koolaidguy1840, and me all hung out and i came home, i was on the comp 4 a whole 10 or maybe 15 minutes until my older sister kicked me off, so i went in my room and as soon as my head hit my pillow, i was out like a light. LIGHT! mrgreen xp And i was sleeping until midnight. When i woke up i checked the clock and it said that it was 12:00. I was kind of confused until i sat down and thought about the day for a few mins. Then i was like 'OHHHHH! I knew that.'
domokun And yeah. I've been up since then. My rooms getting cleaner! Yaaay! exclaim It's awesome. It's true 3nodding I kind of changed my mind on what color braces i want. Instead of black and white bands, i think i want 2 get red or green bands. Most likely red tho. Only b/c i wear red constantly. I have green clothes but not a lot. But oh well. The other day my mom and i went thru all my clothes (once i finally got all of my clothes out of my closet sweatdrop ) and o to the m to the g! We got rid of like HALF! of my clothes 3nodding It feels way better 2 get rid of those old clothes. I have lots more room in my bedroom smile I got my closet a lot more organized this morning, Still got a lot of work 2 do but it's coming along! biggrin I have 'bout 30 bucks in my wallet plus like a vatillion pennies and dimes plus nickels so if i bargain shop, I'll be able 2 find some nice new pillows or some new bed stuff for my bedroom smile
**Listening to, "So Sick (Girl Version)" on youtube** While i was stuck i mean uh IN this tree yesterday, koolaidguy1840 totally tried 2 b my fire man, lol. It was nice of him 2 ask me if i needed help getting down and climbing up after me but i got a sort of defensive and told him that i can get down whenever i wanted 2 and that maybe i just liked it in trees ><"" I'm suck a dork!! >_<" While him and i were up in that tree, which was actually quite comfortable (except 4 when i got my foot stuck that is sweatdrop ), we were awkwardly close and he just kind of stared at me... it was weird but expected. I knew something odd would happen that day. And hey! For once i was actually right...not that i wanted 2 b tho sweatdrop I know I'm over him but kaira windblower, Beechums, and maybe cherry blossom cutie all say that they think i still like him..well..except for Beechums...his words were "I think you still love him." but yeah u get the point. I don't Think i do. But yeah they can say what they want. And some of my other friends say that i talk about koolaidguy1840 a lot and that almost everything sentence i say has his name in it. So-Not-True. (Right?)....I mean he broke my heart I don't like him...(right??)....and besides, even if i did, he doesn't like me like that anymore...which i will admit, makes sad, but that doesn't mean i like him in that way still....does it? eek " But i can't! I...I just...idk..... it has been awkward between us tho. Next month would have been our 1 year anniversary. I can't believe it's been that long. My neighbor purposed 2 me (what else is new?)...he always does that razz We're just kidding though xp Ahhh! the song I'm listening 2 is making me sad! and yet i can't turn it off...or at least i don't want to. Not that i like being sad. Because i don't! I can't think of anyone who does.
I should change the radio channel that i have.
All these songs are so sad.
Why am i thinking of you?
When you're over me and i am too. (and gaia ppl, when it says that i am too, it means that those 2 ppl are over each other >< wink
I have so many mixed feelings that it makes me tired.
and i try to lie to myself.
And tell myself that it's ok.
But it's not and i know it.
I just don't wanna show it.
Do you know it?
You seem blind to my pain.
You're hurting me to the point of tears.
Because of this i have fears.
Don't want you 'outta my life.
But it's hard to have you in it.
'Cause you're actin' so weird.
Don't leave everything behind.
'Cause I'm still here.
And waiting for you to see the truth.
Of how you feel.
Either I'm crazy or you still care.
I would ask but no, i wouldn't dare.
Maybe you don't care.
That's a hella crappy poem that i just wrote ><" Booored. Ik it's stupid but yeah. Tell me wat u think of it if u want. Peace.
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