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After speaking with Shiro my mind was full of so many thoughts. I didn’t get to see him in person which was somehow disappointing. I feel that he’s keeping me at arm’s length since the beginning. Is that what I would be like if the doctor hadn’t interfered with me? I don’t even want to admit it to myself, but I’m not like him. I don’t want to be alone. I need someone that I can rely on and Shiro is all that I have left. Everyone I’ve depended on so far has betrayed me, yet I have faith in him. Maybe it’s because of our old rivalry, if anything it was honest. I suppose for now faith is all I could have, although one day I hope it will turn to trust. It’s the one thing I’ve never had. You see, faith is easy. To have faith in someone it only involves yourself, but trust is a two-way street. You can’t trust someone if they can’t trust you in return. Is it really possible for us, after all?

I couldn’t tell Shiro these things, we really haven’t spoken of the future. I guess he’d assume I want a “normal” life. What is “normal” anyways? That life the doctor projected onto me could be considered normal, so I’ve concluded that normal is an illusion. Perhaps the doctor wanted a normal life for me but all I want is to live on my own terms. I’ll set Shiro straight eventually, but there is no future unless we deal with the present. We’ll never be free unless we deal with Yurojin, Dr. Kaerizaki, and Kuro.

Shiro has come up with a plan to deal with our biggest problem, Yurojin. It would be impossible to topple a corporation that large. If we killed the president and the board they would be replaced easily enough. A take-over would be out of the question too, their shareholders wouldn’t give up their stake in the company if their lives depended on it. Shiro’s plan to make recovering us more trouble than it’s worth is our only option. Next week the unveiling of Yurojin’s new division will be one heck of a party. Already the human rights activists have begun to protest as well as the Catholics. We’ll fan those sparks into flames by exposing ourselves for what we are-products of Yurojin’s tampering with human lives.