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Is it really bad to cut yourself? My mind wants me to, because im such a ******** up. I really cant do anything wright, or i just get ignored. The only thing i can do right is ******** my own life up and the immediate people surrounding me. Well! you wont have to worry about me any more! because when i come back there will be a whole new crowd of people whom Lives i can ******** up one way or another. I really do hate myself, and i hate everyone who ignores me. Im not even sure why I even care about my life! everytime i think about a relationship my stomach gets twisted and i want to throw up. Crying is useless now, i still do it though. The only thing that keeps me even sane at this point is looking at my own blood hit the tile as i take a blade to my skin. If only if only you could see me now....