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Well...I dont know how much everyone here knows about what's been really going on in my life...but there certainly been a lot of crap going on. My life has been at it's lowest point ever. And then even worse crap starts happening. I don't know what to do right now. But I am trying everything I can to keep myself in a positive attitude. And considering everything that's going on, that's some really hard s**t to do.

Let's start off with the big things first I guess? When really all of it is big s**t. But yeah....

First of all...My step-dad has been cheating on my mom with his secretary, and even asked her to marry him like 2-3 weeks before he even told my mom he was cheating on her. So yeah....That's hell. And they are getting a divorce. And all that nummy s**t. We are keeping the house so I don't have to worry about having to move. Mom is getting a second job and all just so we can pay everything off without any help.

Second: School is coming up wayyyyy too fast. And of course I have marching band s**t. And wooo! It starts on my birthday?! August 1?! Yeah I will finally be 17. Im going to be one ******** young senior. What sucks about this is 3 of my bestest friends are all moving away. My very best friend already moved. She's been gone for 2 months now. My best guy friend is leaving ON my birthday...sooo yeah..And the other will be leaving anytime now as well...

And the last...Some people just really don't know how much I care about them. So they ignore me and think I will get over it, when really, I think about them every single freaking day. Like some hopeless girl. That's not somehting you can just ignore. I just want to know, what is it now? Is it the end? What? But instead they go off and be a ******** coward and don't even say one damn thing to me. That feels really nice. Just help along my life and make it even more worse than it already is. I have a heart to you know? But I guess...That really doesn't matter to you?

Gaia life is completely the opposite. I have my own guild. It's awesome <3 The best mods anyone could ask for. It's going under construction again but if anyone wants to join they are welcome to. A Sinner's Greed if your interested. It's getting worked on so stfu. >< But yeah...I'm always in guilds now. The Smap Charity Guild being my absoulutely favorite one. <3 And The Loft gave me awesome people to talk to everyday. I love being a mod there. And thankx to some of the best people in the world. I'm ferking rich on gaia now. All these items are in insane. I'm well worth over a million gold with my items. x.x And i'm just like thats a ******** lot of gold. I've finally got my dream avi though. And I thank anyone who has donated/given me items. I've come a long way from just goti clips, bunny luv, some boots and baggy pants now havent I?

~Sin