These four walls, closing more everyday. And I'm dying inside, but nobody knows it but me. Like a clown, I put on a show. The pain is real even if nobody knows. I'm crying inside, but nobody knows it but me.
My world is tumbling down.
*Sniff* I don't know why, but I feel like I'm sufficating. A million words couldn't say, just how I feel. It's crazy. How else can I say it? I don't know. I feel like I'm doing something against my rules. Against my code.
He's a friend, everyone acts like we're more, and I can't breathe. I don't know why. He got me thinking about it. It's weird. I'll always be there for him, friends. I guess I'm going against my rules, my code, because I don't want to hurt him. I don't like to see people hurt over something like this. Yet I can watch someone die, and I laugh at people who are physically hurt, but emotionally, I just can't stand that. So am I hurting myself by trying not to hurt everyone else? Even with a girl friend I have, I couldn't yell at her and then not be her friend. I had to talk to her some how. I don't like to see people hurt.
 1wickedmind · Tue Jul 19, 2005 @ 10:38am · 0 Comments |
