through out most of the day it seemed to have been awfull,no matter what I did I couldn't make her happy....she varily smiled today.....laughted only once....and overall I just got really worried for her....I knowit's not my place and it seems like it's out of character for me to care for her but I had never seen her so depressed and without me saying anything......infact I did the oposite today...I tried all the usual stuff that makes her happy when she's like this like holding her and reassuring her but nothing worked....I took over for most of the evening and specially when her father was talking to her and even though I made him eat his insults she still wasn't happy.....all she did was cry today...she was even wondering weather it had all been a dream....nature,kitty and vampi;it took me a while to get her to believe that they were indeed alive and not part of her dreams...I really don't think she believes me......she's crying again,thats all she does now.....I even put my differences aside with the other one for a while but even with we couldn't cheer her up.
the worst part was after she ate the cake (yes,I convinced her mom on buying another one just so I could try to cheer her up),she got the insane idea that if they were reall than maybe they're not feeling well and she wouldn't know and she wouldn't be able to help.....I wish I could help more but I can't please her in anyway possible....I don't know what to do anymore and bringing up memories seem to make it worse at the moment......this is bad.....I don't know what to do.
all I know is that I need to get her out of this house , thats why I'm forcing her to take me to the movies this saturday...I just got to take her away from all the chaos...away from all of them....I mean,if a ramdom guy that flirted with her doesn't cheer her up (even though thats more like some one elses idea of fun) then I'm not sure I know what will but I gotta try...I promissed kitty that I would be nice to her for a month......and this is going from bad to worse....so bye....
you should just stop writting....it was just a dream.....everything was....and you know it *sniff*I hate this....I'll forever be alone
 yamiruri · Tue Jul 19, 2005 @ 01:29am · 0 Comments |
