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Why is it soo ******** hard to please the one I love.... YOu don't understand.... I ******** love her. I can't explain how much I do but I can tell you this... that Its more then anything in this universe... Its more then even she can imagine... Its really hard to tell how I truly feel about her...cause I don't know how she truly feels about me... Back then I can feel her love for me... I knew she really cared... I knew she really was happy... Now I can't see it anymore.. I call her everyday.... doesn't if I still want some sleep... It doesn't if I want to eat on break... I still call her everyday... to see whats up or to see how she is doing...and to tell that I love her.. but it really doesnt seem to really sink in to her.. sink in to her... TO know that I would do anything... and I do mean anything for her... to make her happy... I just feel her love drifting away and its really hard to see but I can feel it... deep within her... the day when I true showed my emotion to her.. when I needed her the most.... all she could tell... was "stop", Michael will you shut up, or my personal favorite.. I am going to go now... I needed her comfort....but I know she is getting sick of me... slowly...but she is.... I just wish I knew what I did wrong...What I did to make her this fed up with me .... All I really want in this world right now is to have her love back... Even though she is doing this... I still love her... Call me crazy call me whatever... But I can honestly say with everything I have.... I love her... and I still want to be with her for the rest of my life.... Maybe a small part of me thinks she can be that person that loved me so back... and that she will realize that I am perfect for her... I can only hope... Either way.. I want to be with her... Till my last as been taking away... I know.. Trust I know... I can be really ******** stubborn at time.... I just wish she would see how much I truly need her...

I told her I got the key frag on WoW on accident... It was a honest mistake... she cant see that... I dont understand... all she could was "ok micheal I get it." no she doesnt.... Sad thing is I always ******** everything up.....and All I can say is I am sorry... for the bottom of heart.. there is nothing I can do to change my ******** ups...

Join me in death,
Michael