whan i was young, i saw my life as a sweet cup of tea.
To me life was perfect. I was a young girl, loved by my father, always looking
for attention from my mother and brother, and always got my way.But whan i started to go to school, it was hard to make friends. It was easier to befriend a boy then befriend a girl. Because of that i never could confront a girl, at the age of 7 i was more lonely then a usaul 7 year old would be. Every day i see a young girl that was my age with friends, but i look back and remeber that i never had any friends. Those things the girls said to me were awful and the word they said to me still heart me to day. They called me stupid and dumb, i never new girls could be so cruel. It is like a piece of art, you worked so hard on but when you make one mistake you burst out of anger yell and curse at your art as if it were a person and crumble it up and throw it away. Your art work is now stupid trash that is no longer a picture worth a thousand words.
That is wat happened to me in school and i still feel hurt today, i can't even look up at another person and have a normal conversation because what has happened in the past. I can't look, talk, laugh at anyones jokes because im always ascared of what others think of me.
As i got older, of course i changed. I was seven years old, wearing baggy paled color pants and shirts, i was a little heavy and i was always crying about something. And now im thirdteen wearing black every single day of my life, and i have only one friend when thousands of people my age must have at least have five more.
It truely sucks to grow up, your younger and see your life is perfect but when your in your teens, you see the whole world turn against you...when it is you who is turning it aganist your self. All these years i have not figured it out, and it is sad because i do not no wat is comeing in the future. Will i be any different or will i be my scared self looking for some one to protect me.
Life is truely hard, it is as if there is no point to live.
Ebil_Tudkulos Community Member 
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