I just got home...and its been...weird.
for starterds in the morning jade noticed my scar (I did that one like 5 months ago) and he got all concerned about it (weird),and to make things worse ty got involved and he was like "if I see you doing that s*** to yourself again I'm going to smack you"(his words not mine),and this is from the same guy that also used to call me his mistress until I told him I was in maria's side (the really hate each other).
nothing much happened for today unless you count the little details like me biting my manager , first of all he said I could...he was the one who put his arm infront of my face even though I told him not too 'cause I wouldn't be able to say no one more time....yet he didn't listen and he ended up with a nasty looking bruse and some of his skin was peeling (did I mentioned that I was holding back and this only lasted for like 10 second?),I haven't been myself ever since the nurse let me lick my own blood....big mistake.....I've been needing blood and bite someone (even myself) more than ever.
it happened yesterday when I was with elly,we had just gone outside after she played ddr and for a second I just lost myself....I was so close to biting myself but I held back 'cause I knew that if I did then elly would have tried to stop me and then *shakes her head* I don't want to think what would have happened.
another thing that happened today was that I got smacked in the arm by ty (he was trying to prove that he could hurt me),it backfire 'cause I started laughting,I ended up being they're doodle pad ,by they I mean joey and ty...those two held me down and started drawing the tictac toe thing on my arm (by my bruses).
I have my friend's signature,along with some "hi",some weird junk and yeah I let them do it after the other two had already finished they're game....it was fun to see jade's face ^_^...he's such a baby,he was trying to prove that he was such a man that nothing could get to him, so that's why he let me bite him....he ended up whining all day long about how I left a mark and stuff (I was holding back,had I really wanted to make sure that he felt pain he would have started bleeding).....yesterday was better though ( 3nodding yup yup),I love to go out but specially if it is with elly 3nodding we whent to see a movie and played ddr ^_^ she's the best player I've seen even if she doesn't believe me (and yes I've seen a few),while we were watching the movie she keeped trying to make me eat some popcorn -^_^- so sweet of her but she knows how I feel about food ^_^.
she called me her oniichan...so kawaii....next time I'm hoping she'll let me see a scary movie...I won't get nightmares from them...I only get them if I go to sleep early and about people that I really care for (thats why mom and dad aren't in my top 5...or 3 ).
when we got to her house she showed me some drawings that she had made (they're so cute),I wish I could draw like that...oh and something that shouldn't have happened happened yesterday.....she heard me singing that song....I thought I was singing it faintly but she heard me...that shouldn't have happened,that song was suppost to go to the grave with me....I blame the roses and the night (my weakness)....but I can overlook that 'cause it doesn't matter much ^_^....last night's nightmare involved fire....couldn't put it out ^_^ see that's what happenes when I go to sleep early.
 yamiruri · Mon Jun 27, 2005 @ 02:06am · 0 Comments |
