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Before I start complaining again, I'd better say things aren't all bad. My job's going great and my dad being back in town isn't horrid after all. I've also got more money to help out my mom's a bit.

But of course, all that comes at a price.

Apparently I haven't got over Allanah. Seriously, I dream about this girl. I think about her WAY too often. I don't understand why I can't get over her; it's over and I know it. Sheesh...

And because of that, I can't succeed with ANY woman. I actually currently have another girlfriend, believe it or not. And contrary to the norm we barely talk. Seriously, we just don't talk. If I left her today I don't think I'd care at all. And I don't think she would either. You see I'm sitting here telling the public how much the relationship is actually worth. Oh, and me and one of my oldest female friends got really close recently too. But that situation was just all messed up. We both already had a mate (Even though I'd leave mine in an instant) and she really cares for her boyfriend. Not that I don't care for my girlfriend, but ya know...

But I keep thinking of Allanah! How could I make another relationship work when all I can think about is how much I love and miss her!? My girlfriend doesn't know about her, but the other girl does. I can't believe I still feel that same way as before, i need to fix this, like, now! Weak...

On a slightly lighter note: My best friend, Josh, is shipping out to the Navy is September. Now, I'm not worried so much about his health. More or less I'm just going to miss my buddy. Besides, anyone who's ever talked to me about politics knows how much I hate America's military and how I'd refuse to ever help them in our current state. But who knows, maybe Hillary Clinton will take over office and it won't be so bad, eh? (That was a joke. Laugh you heathens.)

I still can't drive. I hit a car once. A parked car.