Well on April 19th my Guinea Pig Snickers Passed away.
I kinda Blame myself >_<
I didn't get up that day till 12 and didn't really moving till I got back home from dinner and being draged to look at cars. I didn't walk into the Gararge till about 8pm that night. As I walk by Snicker's Cage(Aquarium) I noiced that she was just laying down (didn't look normal) and when I Put my hand in to pet her she wasn't acting skitchish in fact she didn't really move. She tried to move and she squealed. I knew something was wrong.
As soon as I picked her up... I knew what was happening. Snickers was dying. I held her for the next hour... I watched and felt her slip away... fade away... the life drain from her. I cryed, as I held her in my arms... Soon she grew cold and I could no longer feel or hear her heart beat.
That feeling, I don't think will ever leave me... the horrible phsyical feeling of something you love dying. Its Undescribable. For the past two night snickers has been in my dreams... in one She pulled through... in the other I relived the expericance. Even when i lay down to sleep at night my mind wanders back to that moment.
I know that it is just a Guinea Pig... but she was mine! I had Snickers since I was in highschool, I bought her around easter as a companion for Lady Carmel (she passed away two years ago of old age also but not so sudden). I miss her she was my piggy.
Currently I find it hard to walk in to the Gararge pass her Cage and to see it empty.
I think God hates me or something or I'm being punished ~_~ First my car... my dreams and now my Guinea Pig.
*sigh*
what else can be taken from me?
what else can be broken?
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