I really don't know how I'm feeling.
On Friday, it was the last day of school and some one stole my Ipod out of my bag.
It made me upset and scarred because last time somebody stole in, my mom was furious. All my friends came to say goodbye and comforted me as I cried (A lot of my friends are going to different schools/towns/ect.) Even the guy I like came over and held me for a few minutes, but even then, I didn't saw a word, not goodbye, not anything, I just cried about my little problem. When I got home and told my mom, she really wasn't all that mad at me, which made the problem really small. Then the next day I realized I didn't give ANYONE a decent goodbye and I felt really guilty. I was crying over my material possession while a bunch of my other friends cried about leaving there friends, making my problem seem so small.
I've been wanting to call him and apoligize to him for being so selfish, but everytime, I ether get to nervous and ended up crying, or once, I got his answering machine and didn't leave a message because I was afraid, then started crying.
It's been gnawing at my insides all weekend and now too. I've felt so dirty and selfish and just wishing I could go back and not react the way I did, so I could say goodbye.
I just wish I could say goodbye...
And not feel so...
Gulity
Dirty
Selfish
Rainbow_Blade14 Community Member 
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