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What if.


People always ask that question. What if. What if I had said this. What if I had done this. Though you never get a true answer. You'd get a 'this would probably happen' . I know this, and I know its a rather stupid question. And yet, I still ask it. What if I hadn't moved to Oklahoma?

Well I got these Pros...

I wouldn't be in the wheelchair to maybe this year.
My parents may have not have gotten the divorce in the first place.
I'd still be talking to at least some of my family.
I may have actually get a boyfriend when I could date, the wheelchair stops many things.
I would probably still be dancing for a lot longer then I had.
I would still have 2 malls that are only 6 minutes away from each other and me yay! (that is depending on traffic)

And here are the cons.

I wouldn't have such great friends: Jordan, Meagan, Robin, Devin, Taylor, Caitlin.
I wouldn't have my 'siblings' : Eddie, Amanda.
I wouldn't have second and third dads: Grant, Mr. DeNike.
I wouldn't have classes that challange me. (In IL you have to go to an honor school to have honor classes, way expensive)
I wouldn't have house, I'd still be in a trailer park.
Doubtful that I would come to know Jesus as my savior.
I wouldn't be able to play piano most likely, and therefore I probably wouldn't be able to play percussion.
I wouldn't have DSL for internet (I know not very big....but dial up is a pain!)
I wouldn't be in a school that doesn't have a whole lot of drugs and sex and alcohol...that type of stuff (my high school for my old town did)
My dad wouldnt' have gotten the help and be able to treat his chronic depression.
I would still have to go to peoria (2 maybe 3 hours a way) all day to see 6 stinkin doctors and have at least 8 x-rays taken.
I would never have been in choir (aka no one would notice I maybe...doubtful...but maybe have some talent)

So please look at those. Is it just me, or is there a hell of a lot more cons then there are pros? So I guess maybe things do happen for the best? I dare you. I dare you to do as I did and list out all the pros and cons you can think of, if something happened differently. Now to a lot of my cons, there are subbranches, such as I wouldn't have the sleepovers etc. So don't bother setting up sub ones. Just try it. Just sit down and type out all the things that would be good and would be bad if something happened differently. I bet you will come out with the same thing, that eveyrthing happens for a reason. That all things that happen are for the best. And if you don't come out with the same type of results, well...perhaps your heart isn't exactly in the right place. Don't yell at me for saying that though. You may just be looking at the surface. Oh and a littlle hint? Don't try and do it with things that happen just recently. More often then not you'll end up with more Pros because you are still angry with what happened. At the beginning of something bad you always look at everything that is wrong with it and say that something else would be a lot better. I still look at things like that with the wheelchair. At times I still think it would be better if I was never in it. But hey, its not my choice. You wanna know who's choice it is? Either look up at the sky, and realize who created it. Or look into your heart, where He lies. Either way you'll find an answer. Well thats all for now. Good bye

Catherine.