Nightmare
I had a really bad nightmare last night, for me anyway. I can't entirely remember it.. but I remember being chased and s**t...
The specific thing I remember is when these girls wanted me to sing and I was forced to sing. They walked away because I wasn't good and I was confused. My dad explained that they left because I wasn't good ((in a nicer way)) and I got really upset. I kept saying how I just wasn't good at that song. So ja...
Love Rant
I was talking with Jo about how people just have crushes on people by looking at them. I was trying to understand it cause I didn't get why so many people did it with me when there's probably prettier girls out there compared to me. She was explaining how people sometimes just look at someone and think they're the prettiest thing there ((in her own Jo words lol)).
I stopped and thought about it and realized that I have gone through that... with Hanz. I'm not trying to say this because I'm with him, it's true. I've never felt that way with anyone else, that I recall.
I was still with Nick and just saw Hanz... I swear I stopped breathing and I got hella nervous. I kept thinking about how pretty he was and I hadta go outside.. I wasn't just outside talking to Dante or my mom to help us get in the movies. I was talking to a friend and going in a circle around a pole. I felt like I sinned just by thinking what I thought because I was taken and he was taken.. God, I felt horrible... but I couldn't help but have a crush on him.
I usually lose interest in people ((I have David's problem, haha)). There's been times where I lost interest in Jason or Nick while with them... but I just stayed then gained interest again.. Hanz? I kept thinking I would but I never have. Every time I think I'm about to, he makes me fall in even more love with him and it's crazy. I love it.
End =3
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.::CrieS::.
I had a really bad nightmare last night, for me anyway. I can't entirely remember it.. but I remember being chased and s**t...
The specific thing I remember is when these girls wanted me to sing and I was forced to sing. They walked away because I wasn't good and I was confused. My dad explained that they left because I wasn't good ((in a nicer way)) and I got really upset. I kept saying how I just wasn't good at that song. So ja...
Love Rant
I was talking with Jo about how people just have crushes on people by looking at them. I was trying to understand it cause I didn't get why so many people did it with me when there's probably prettier girls out there compared to me. She was explaining how people sometimes just look at someone and think they're the prettiest thing there ((in her own Jo words lol)).
I stopped and thought about it and realized that I have gone through that... with Hanz. I'm not trying to say this because I'm with him, it's true. I've never felt that way with anyone else, that I recall.
I was still with Nick and just saw Hanz... I swear I stopped breathing and I got hella nervous. I kept thinking about how pretty he was and I hadta go outside.. I wasn't just outside talking to Dante or my mom to help us get in the movies. I was talking to a friend and going in a circle around a pole. I felt like I sinned just by thinking what I thought because I was taken and he was taken.. God, I felt horrible... but I couldn't help but have a crush on him.
I usually lose interest in people ((I have David's problem, haha)). There's been times where I lost interest in Jason or Nick while with them... but I just stayed then gained interest again.. Hanz? I kept thinking I would but I never have. Every time I think I'm about to, he makes me fall in even more love with him and it's crazy. I love it.
End =3
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.::CrieS::.
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