You know what I am sick of? People who say their your friends but they keep on hurting you and then you get upset cuz you hurt them. Then they expect you to make it up to them when it was just only one time you had ever made them cry. I know I have cried outside and inside because of what people have done to me. I felt terrible, even betrayed. But you know...I continue to do all these nice things for people and don't get s**t in return.
You think someone is your friend but then they turn around and lie, cheat, steal, and even betray you.
I was brought up very well and under a good system where I knew what friends were, the good type of friends but sadly I never had any. Well, everyone complains cuz I am to clingy or I get to close. You know...FRIENDSHIP IS ABOUT THAT! If people could give what I have then the world would be a better place. People say they are sorry but they keep doing things to you that are hurtful and sometimes even mean. Where you hardly did anything if anything at all. Yet those same people who claim to be your friends keep hurting you countless times expect you to get them something or make it up to them. Where your the one hurting you do it anyways cuz you want to make them happy cuz you care. But what it feels like to me is...if this person truly cared about me they wouldn't be doing all these hurtful things even if its not on purpose. They would try. I have had it up to here with people do this...
What really makes me mad is when you trust somebody and their friend says something about you or someone you care about, when it was completly uncalled for then that friend just apparently lets them do it when they know the history of the family and what happened! I think its safe to say...that this person doesn't know much about true friendship because if they did they would understand how I am and how important it is to me to be close with them and many others. Yet they refuse that because they feel uncomfortable, because it is strange to them. I do understand that but this has been a long time and this person should already know how I am with friends. When someone is close, they usually stay that way other wise they arn't a true friend at all.
People continue to hurt me but its like nothing...but now this is the last thing I will let happen. Everyone gets three chances...three chances of when I will step up and when I do, what I have to say won't be pretty.
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