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My family gets on my nerves oh so much... Ever since I stopped attending church and crap, they've treated me like some type of devil worshiping alien. JUST BECAUSE I DON'T BELIEVE IN GOD, IT DOESN'T MEAN I WORSHIP THE DEVIL!! Get it into your thick minds and leave me alone. e-e

Everything I do is wrong, and I mean everything. All kinds of otherwise "great" things are happening to me as far as achedemics, such as awards and trips and such, and all I do is get yelled at for them or completely ignored. I mean, it's normal for these things, but when you get invited on a trip to Germany, you're not supposed to get yelled at for it.

And my dad is the worst person in history. My birthday was October 27 and instead of at least calling me to wish me a happy birthday, he went off to drive some racecar JUST LIKE HE DID THE YEAR BEFORE!! And on thanksgiving, I helped prepare a huge meal and sat up late waiting for him to show up. On Christmas, he said that he didn't feel welcome when we invited him to come over and didn't even call.

I haven't really talked to him in about 6 months and now he wants to go to my chorus concert and promotion ceremony and s**t, and it really pisses me off! "Hi, honey! I know I haven't even paid attention to your existance for half a year, but now that I can show you off to my family again, I want to go to all of your school events!" I really really really dislike him SO GREATLY that I think I'd be happy if he were to pack up and leave town just like he did when I was still a small child.

I've never been anything to him but some prize to show off to his family for my whole life. He would always take my ******** report cards and show them off, leaving me behind minutes later to go ride on some gay a** boat.

He knows nothing about me, yet expects me to be his perfect little angel. I was stupid before, and thought that maybe if I just kept making those A's then he'd accept me but now I realize that that's never going to happen. He's useless and that phony love that he offers me is useless as well.