Life as I know it now, has changed drastically. 10 months ago I got pregnant,the 9 months of my pregnancy have been Hell. The Fathers Mother was putting a lot of pressure on me to have an abortion but I didn't want him dead, I love him. End after I could no longer Legally have an abortion she was just being a complete b***h! Everyone else was really supportive and great especially the fathers father. 1 month ago I gave birth to a beautiful baby boy and two days later I signed him away to another family..I gave him up for adoption, and my life will never be the same, knowing I gave birth to a perfectly healthy baby boy who had all his didgets and I gave him away o people I really didn't know. So that hopefully he would have a better life than I could give him. And now things will never feel the same to mend he will always be in the back of my mind and the center of my heart. I fear I have disappointed (almost) everyone, no matter what they say. They almost all wanted him and said that they would help. But I'm too poor to even feed myself, and I have a very bad temper with a very short fuse. And I never want to hurt my children. But my mother keeps making comments on how I should have kept him or given him to her. But She Is a terrible mother...I know from first hand experience. I feel so torn apart by every ones negative comments and even their support. It Just Hurts
 The Goddess Eclaire · Fri Oct 13, 2006 @ 07:04pm · 2 Comments |
