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CemeteryGirl
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Posted: Sat Jun 10, 2006 @ 10:14pm
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Spoken: Small, simple, safe price Rise the wake and carry me with all of my regrets This is not a small cut that scabs, and dries, and flakes, and heals And I am not afraid to die I'm not afraid to bleed, and ********, and fight. I want the pain of payment What's left, but a section of pigmy size cuts Much like a slew of a thousand unwanted ******** Would you be my little cut? Would you be my thousand ********? And make mark leaving space for the guilt to be liquid To fill, and spill over, and under my thoughts My sad, sorry, selfish cry out to the cutter I'm cutting trying to picture your black broken heart Love is not like anything Especially a ******** knife
Look at me, you can tell By the way I move and do my hair Do you think that it's me or it's not me? I don't even care I'm alive I don't smell I'm the cleanest I have ever been. I feel big, I feel tall, I feel dry dry
chorus: Just look at me, look at me now I'm a fake x4 Just look at me, look at me now I'm a fake x4
Do I drink? Do I date? I've got perfect placement all my ink Satisfied, in your eyes I'm the biggest fan I've got right now I made sure, that I look how I wanted to look The people around me, the people surround me I feel big, I feel tall, I feel dry dry
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My stomach hurts now, and all tied off in lace I pray, I beg for anything, to hit me in the face and this sicknes isn't me, I pray to fall from grace The last thing I see is feeling And I'm telling you I'm a fake x4 And I'm telling you I'm...
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Posted: Tue Jun 06, 2006 @ 05:17am
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CemeteryGirl
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Posted: Mon Jun 05, 2006 @ 07:33pm
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Posted: Mon Jun 05, 2006 @ 07:14pm
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CemeteryGirl
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CemeteryGirl
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Posted: Sat May 13, 2006 @ 06:21pm
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Posted: Wed May 10, 2006 @ 11:45pm
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I can't take this anymore!
I can't please everybody, I can't make everybody happy! You want to know the honest truth? I have no good friends! What the ******** does everybody want me to do? Everybody makes me feel like such a total ******** up!! I don't know what the hell you all want me to do, but im not perfect! I'M NOT ******** PERFECT!! I know im not the best friend, I know im not the best kid. I've made plenty of mistakes in my life but im trying to turn that all around! But you know what, im going to continue doing what I do to myself, (and most of you know what that is), if nobody will drop the subject and give me a ******** break about it! Im sure each and every one of you at least make 1 ******** mistake a day!!! No, more then that, way more then that!! So leave me the hell alone about it!!! This doesn't go to everybody, but those who make me feel like a peice of s**t!, you know who the hell you are!
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Posted: Mon Apr 24, 2006 @ 06:34pm
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A story.....
My mom begins to scream at me, I tell her I hate her. She hits me, bruises me. I run to my room, I grab a knife and begin to dig. Dig deep into my wrists. Digging, down to my veins. I start to bleed, I grow pale, I start to cry because the blood won't stop. I won't stop bleeding so I scream. My mom runs into the room, gasping. She runs over to me screaming my name. All I can see now is light. A pale light. Then nothing. I hear my mom scream for me. Then scream for help.She screams my name over and over, telling me to hold on. ''Im here'' ''Can't you hear me?'' She ignores my faint cries. Then I see doctors around me. ''Whats going on I ask?'' ''Listen to me! ''Whats going on?'' Then I hear the doctors words......Shes gone. I begin to panic. ''Im not gone'' I scream. ''Im not gone!'' ''Why wont anybody listen to me?!'' Then I see my mom crying, standing over my cold dead body. Crying. screaming.
All this time I thought nobody can see my...hear me. Now im really gone. Now they really can't hear me. They can't see the tears I shed, and they will never know how I feel. Nobody can help me now. My body is still living, but my soul is dead. it doesnt matter what you do, what you say. Im not here anymore, so don't bother trying to help me.
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Posted: Mon Apr 17, 2006 @ 11:48pm
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Lifes meaning...
I never really knew what to call life. What its true purpose was. I really didn't know if it even had a meaning. I gave it some long thought and realized that it is an actual game. A game of survival. A game to see how long you can last before time runs out. It's a game to see what your purpose of being here is and how much you can get accomplished. It's like a videogame. At one point you die, but before then you want to see how far you can get. You make friends, you lose friends. You have loved ones and at one point they die to. You feel sad, you feel hurt. But at the same time you feel happy and want to travel the world and meet new people. You get new tasks every day even when you don't realize it. Simple tasks, such as taking your dog for a walk, or going to check the mail. Anything can happen to you, anybody can attack. Thats why you should always be on your gaurd. Just like game characters, fantasys, ect. You can become ill, if you don't find that special antidote before times up, the sickness becomes worse and can soon kill you off. Basicaly life is a challenge, to see how far you can get, and to see what you can accheive. Thats how i look at it anyway.
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Posted: Mon Apr 17, 2006 @ 04:22pm
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