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People fear all sorts of things. Some fear spiders, some fear the dark, for some it's heights. When I say I'm not afraid of anything I really mean all but one thing. I'm not afraid to die, not of an accident or of murder. I do not fear death for the simple reason that I know I will be remembered. What I fear is suicide. I fear it like ice would fear the sun. I fear it because I know that it could happen, I've come close before. It scares me not because of dying, but because in that moment, that very moment, I would be at rock bottom. It would be the very worst time in my life. What I fear is not ending on a positive note. That's why I think I'm afraid to get attached to people anymore. I'm afraid to love anyone who might turn their back on me because those that I love above all else have the ability to make me hit rock bottom.