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i guess i put this one off as long as i could
i guess
i felt like if i didn't put it in words
it wouldn't be final
i could go back to your old house
knock on the door
and you'd answer
i still can't accept that
i dont spend every day crying about you
but your always in the back of my mind
but theres times
when i hear a song that reminds me of you
or look at a picture too hard
or maybe on a car ride home
and especially on holidays
i break down
i think of you for hours on end
crying my eyes out
wishing i was 5 again
and none of this had ever happened
that i could run in colt's room and you'd be there playing granturismo
or we could wrestle one last time
or at least 10
so we could talk about all the stupid crap we used to do
but its not going to happen
as bad as i want it
as hard as i wish
I'll never hear your laugh again
or see you smile
or watch wwf with you like the old days
but after i cry
i lay down and i wonder
whatd it be like if you were still here
what would you be doing?
id do anything to hear you laugh one more time
or to hug you goodbye
but i cant
i dont like living with that
but all i can do is dream
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