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How should i explain just how i feel? It is not the easiest thing in the world to do. I always find myself drifting farther away from reality, not because i can't accept it, but because i know that there's more than what has been given. I yearn for more even though I shouldn't.
Where that puts me, I have no idea...but there are others that feel the same, even if they won't admit it. It's a feeling like no other. It first blooms in your heart then slowly consumes your mind and body. The sensation is as soft as a rose, but the passion as hot as volcanic flames. It could drive a person crazy!!! Every moment of my life; it feels like I'm waiting for that certain moment, the one that will change me forever.

I might sound crazy, but I know there are others that silently believe it. The quiet self inside you knows (and no not like a multiple personality disorder). There are different characters to a person. You could say it is similar to a theater. Let's say one person has to play a social person, a family member, and a main character. Each time that one character interacts with others, they change. Whether it be clothes, make-up, or personality. It's when the character is alone beyond any influence that they can truely be themselves. There is, however, one exception to that. There is also a time when a person is so caught up in the play that they even fool themselves into one of their characters. After a while, it can be hard to find the small ounce of you that's left. I'd say that the hardest part of this whole process is actually noticing that your playing other people's parts in the play and not your own. Some people go their whole lives without realizing it.

That is the part of me that is waiting silently, the true me. For something to change...and i don't even know WHAT!!! It's that part that makes me feel important to the world because it is the innocent part of me that dreams and has no boundaries. It is what makes me essential to the world because it is the only thing I alone can offer. Something so small that is 100% me and not anything else formed by my parent's genes or others influences. Because sometimes I do play a certain character that makes me forget what I'm truely trying to accomplish.MYSELF.