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Poetry
Contemplate

Beautiful but deadly; Sinful, yet pure
Hearts beat steady but still so unsure.
The subject of care and habitual self-harm
Painfully she will bear her unloved left arm

Her life force so strong under weak skin
Self love never wrong, but difficult to win.
Falling into submission, she refused to compete
The touch of a hand, speak words so sweet.

She's so content with a simple delight
Not so innocent was her kiss goodnight
Her smile so sweet, a curse that still lingers
Razor in hand, seductive were her fingers

Self harm so destructive, drowned out by the lies
She's so vindictive with those sharp steel eyes
Across the highway and down the street
Never will know the people she could meet.

To show you my pain, would it make you cry?
If the truth should hurt you, should I tell a lie?
Everything happens for a reason, a stab in the gut
Time heals all wounds, I sew you tightly shut

Alas, she could make me finally complete
If our love wasn't so bittersweet.





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Poetry
Bondage

This is my life
Laid out in fragile pieces
And this is the strife
That keeps me so sleepless

These are my scars
Souveiners of my blunders
And this is the part
Of a fallen one going under

I feel your hands tighten
And I refuse to give in
I'm not done with fighting
I'll not let another one win.

This is that mortality
That I choose to ignore
And that was the sanity
That I have longed for

A second guess in mind
Of the pain I fear to face
The way I feel about you
Nothing but a lingering trace

Love still running through my vein
Tangled around my numbing heart
And in the end it's all the same
The little things that keep us apart

The hate that binds almost every part
But love is what leads me back to the start.




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Poetry
Everlasting

The soul, the mind, the things you left behind.
Your kiss, your touch, is all that will remind.
Of the love I lost when I couldn't let you in,
When you had to feel the pain of hurt again.

Tonight I feel cold as if I'm dead,
Fighting the memories in my head.
Despite my fears I cry myself to sleep.
The emotions you wrought run too deep.

All the painful words I have said to you
Won't ever take away my love so true
I wonder if it was meant to disagree,
Or if you'll ever come back to me.

My love for you everlasting.
My desperate affection is entraping,
The scar that you left forever in my mind,
I reject all your love, that was so blind.

But my love for you everlasting.
Could never be the first thing.





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Poetry
Imperfection

Poem I wrote after I accepted two very important parts of myself: My sexuality and my faith.

Imperfect this second in time,
Fill my soul with God's endless rhyme.
There's no chance better to realign,
Yet I still overlook His sign.

Still I spent my time living in sin,
Never able to conquer these feelings within.
Trapped by my lust for a curved muse,
In this He pains but will never refuse.

His love will shine always on me,
He has given me His love to see.
Never again will I reject his love,
My faith will lead to this Heaven above.

With his love I feel so purified.
All this from his touch inside,
Of my sinners soul, my very being.
Always showing me the path I was never seeing.

I can never be perfect.
In sin, I will always reject.
But I know I am redeemed by the knife,
In silent pain you gave your son's life.

To save my soul.
To make me whole.
To give me one last chance,
To live life by your worded dance.




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YAY It's Christmas Day
Actually ... it's like 1am ... but it's still CHRISTMAS!! You go Baby Jesus!!

In the spirit of giving I have thoroughly worked my a** off ...
I have upgraded the guild I moderate for severly ... Very pretty.
Created a new welcome page, Contests, and Holiday Parties ... etc!

I'm so proud of how it looks..... whee

Though after all the contests I'm going to be broke ... but it's Christmas and it's all about the giving. xd blaugh

(Wishes she could axcess the guild's funds) sad sweatdrop

OH well HAPPY HOLIDAYS!!




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Not very good at Journals
Christmas is not that far away and I'm very excited. I love this season.

I got an early Christmas present last night ... well today at 3am LOL sweatdrop

I went to the Bar and I accidently blew off an incredibly hot chick ... I thought I ran into her on the dance floor ... horrible mistake ... she was trying to dance with me.

So when I'm leaving with my friend she tells me about it and I feel like crap ... very sad ... usually no girls come up to me ... I'm under the impression it's cause I don't look like a lesbian xp .... but bsides the point. We pull out of the parking lot and another girl comes up to me and we flirt and I get her number. She was so CUTE with her lil' "Oscar the Grouch" hat.

I'm very content right now. xd



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OMG shrubbery is planting it's roots in the White House for 4 more years .... Oh lord .... where did I put that Weed-Be-Gone.

::Searches around:: domokun

My fingers hurt .... I been working on being a good moderator for my guild. gonk Creating many .... sigs .... apparently the guys didn't like that they were all lesbo ones. LOL xd




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Monday
First post ... but I'm currently getting prepared a day in advance for voting.

Key Items:
3nodding Registration Card
3nodding Offensive shirt
sad Bullhorn


Haven't quite laid my hands on a bullhorn. sweatdrop

Aside from that I have an action-packed day of being: Totally bored out of my mind ...
xp

Lucky Me!



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