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When a person cries of sadness, how badly is it suppose to hurt? Physically. It is very painful when I do. Every time I do, as rarely as it happens. Painful to the extent that for moments I can't even focus on why it is I was crying.
I wasn't alone this time. Bookman, Greg and April were there. Bookman was the first to notice. This was the first time I was so compelled to bring my hands to my face while crying. All past times that I can remember, all I did was little more than sit still as tears fell out.
This time was different.. My whole body aches. My throat choked me. I was for a moment blinded. My stomach, legs, arms strained and shiver. I took a breath in and it was actually wavering. Bookman grabbed me. Greg started yelling.
Suppression Session · Sun Jan 11, 2009 @ 01:19pm · 0 Comments |
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This is just my code for my profile's "About Me" section.
Because when I go to edit it, the code tends to glitch up. I don't want to have to cut and paste so much, should I change it again.
[center]["I don't have a solution. But I admire the problem."] "Like when you're walking upstairs in the dark, and you think there's one more step than there actually is. Your foot falls through the air unexpectedly, and there's a sickening feeling of darkness"] - [i]Lemony Snicket[/i] ["Everybody sees what you appear to be. But hardly anyone sees who you really are."] - [i]Envy[/i] FMA ["When I was walking up the stairs, I met a man who wasn't there. he wasn't there again today. I wish, I wish, he'd go away"] - Movie [i]Identity[/i] ["Wakey-wakey, Chills n' shaky"] - [i]Me[/i] ["I hate weddings. All the grandmas would poke me saying "You're next". They stopped that when I started doing it to them at funerals."][/center]
Age: 13
Sign: Taurus
Relationship: Single, open-minded
Location: Arkansas
Sex: Male
Currently Addicted To: [i]Zeromancer[/i] song "Doctor Online". __________ [u][Friend-Requests][/u]: I will -not- add you to my friendlist if I don't know you. If you send me mail asking for votes, donations, chain-letters, to add your "new account", to lotteries, RP recruitment - or anything like it, I will put you on my ignore list, and report the letter. I will -not- add you to my friendlist if you use poor grammar, or netspeak for -any- reason.
[u][Personality][/u]: I am always bluntly honest. If you think i'm being mean, grow up, you're being a p***y. I will not apologize for my temperament, and will not bother to start a useless argument over -anything-. You don't have to believe some of the things I tell you, but don't try to "correct" me. Also, I don't suffer fools very well, so if you are one, [u]move along[/u].
[u][Sexuality][/u]: I'm bisexual - no preference. I'm not generally a romantic person, so don't expect me to fall head-over-heels in under a week. Or ever. __________ [u][Extra][/u]: I like to make gaia profiles. If you like the kind I make, feel free to ask me to make you one. There's no charge, though a "donation" would be nice.
NOTE: You don't have to compliment this current profile. I didn't make it. I got it off TekTek. I may make one of my own to put here eventually, when I have more time. __________
If you know who I am, if you've met me or any of my "other" minds, then PM me to tell me so. It's doubtful anyone will figure me out, but it would be interesting if it should ever happen.
Suppression Session · Sat Oct 25, 2008 @ 02:46am · 0 Comments |
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The start of day Five, actually. But again, I could find no time last night for this.
Nothing much happened, that wouldn't happen ordinarily back home. Only in greater numbers. The day was simple. A good lot of sex was happening all over, at least every hour, that I knew of. More-so at night. Drinking down in the basement, along with abuse of the tazers. Some of the people went out into town, I think, for a good lot of hours. I planned to ask where when they got back, but Orphious woke an hour or so before that point.
I guess i'll fill this entry out with describing Brandi a bit. She's a very, very large black woman. Very smart, in charge type of woman. She's as cynical as I am. And despite her size, she eats so little. I find her incredibly sexy. Though apparently i'm not her type.
[edit] I am adding this entry four days after making it. Some things happened which made me both forget, and too busy to add it before now.
Suppression Session · Wed Apr 04, 2007 @ 08:30am · 0 Comments |
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Country-Hell :: Day Three |
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Right now, it is actually the mid of day Four. But, I couldn't find time to make the entry for day Three, yesterday.
As busy and time-consuming as yesterday was, surprisingly little of anything interesting happened. Around mid-day, 11 of the guys and girls here got together to wow me yet again with their efficient stupidity. I walked in on them playing Musical Chairs. Though three of the 'chairs' were buckets.
They asked me if I wanted to join. Imagine my disappointment as Bookman came in to take me to more important issues. It was mainly him, me, and Brandi going over the rationing of the 'supplies'. The supplies that only made it the day after we did. This is what took so long, there was arguments as to who got what. Bookman says I won the argument, despite not getting the third set of guns. So i'll believe him.
After that was done, Orphious came in to finish the day. I suppose, if anything more happened, he will add a bit for me to enter here. Otherwise, i'll close this entry now.
Suppression Session · Sat Mar 31, 2007 @ 12:11am · 0 Comments |
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The end of day two, in this sixth ring of country-hell. Again, not too much out of the ordinary happened today. It's very much like what we usually pass the days doing back home - just in far greater numbers. The noteable events are equally unsurprisingly disappointing, and amusing, as back home as well. A better way to put it - the things that these large number of dunderheads do fill me with both stress and humor.
First, at around noon, I went into the second-floor kitchen. I found - I think her name is Liz - checking a cake in the oven. Which, i'm certain had a special ingredient in it, since the six men that actually got to eat it all, in a matter of minutes; might I add, immediately found everything hillarious afterward.
Well, on the floor was Josh. Naked. Just laying there, making some low grumbles of snores. The only thing I could think to say - after the intense laughing at how careless Liz was to this scene two feet from her - was, "God damn it people, if you see a mess on the floor, at least pick it up." And then went on to have a sleep.
I believe it was Orphious who woke up first. The first thing I did when Orphious retired was; Went out with every able body in this house as one writhing swarm of very hungry zombies to swarm our food source. Taco Bell.
I wish I were joking, a bit.
It was 11:45pm when we went to do this. It is 1:35am now. We got back all of 10 minutes ago. Not much more of interest happened today. Nothing worth saying, at least. So i'll end this entry here.
Suppression Session · Thu Mar 29, 2007 @ 07:38am · 0 Comments |
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Otherwise known as Missouri. We came up here early yesterday. Everybody in our house, except for Seth and Jennifer, came. We're here for a meeting of sorts. The base from Tennessee came, also. It's the end of the first day here, so, not much of anything interesting has happened yet.
Today, I went into the bathroom upstairs, and found Corey fiddling with a few things. I asked him what he was doing, and he said in a very chipper and unaware way - "I'm making chloroform!"
I wondered for a second or two where he found out how to make chloroform, and then why he would need to make chloroform. But he told me he thought he was done, and poured some onto a clean towel. So I asked him - "How will you know if you did it right?"
And, I really shouldn't be surprised at his method for proving it worked. But still, it took me. He gave a curious look, looked at the towel, and with a sharp -I've got it!- expression, held the rag to his face. He fell right over. Yes, he knocked himself out with.
I sighed and exited. The rest of the day was mostly us sorting out where we're all going to be sleeping, and plotting exactly what we're going to do for the next week. There's 23 people here, now, and this is only a two story house with a basement. Me - with Bookman's assistance - Evan, and Brandi all sorted that out. It took surprisingly longer than I thought it would.
Aside from that, the only thing i'm certain some people would find funny, is that I fell flat over thanks to a slippery substance in the doorway to this room.
Suppression Session · Wed Mar 28, 2007 @ 12:15pm · 0 Comments |
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Don't mind the topic. I couldn't think of anything else to make it.
Today is almost over, and it doesn't seem much more is going to be happening. So, i'll jot this down now.
I went to lay down on my bed around Noon today, and noticed an oddly-shaped lump under the covers. I pulled it out and found it was Greg's d***o. It looked clean, thankfully. Though I might have been mistaken. I was tired, and not in the mood for that kind of s**t, so I went upstairs to grab him and ask what his d***o was doing in my bed. You can imagine how he answered.
I knocked him in the head a few times and reminded him of the very clear fact that i'm not gay. Then went to bed for the usual four hours.
Not much else worth saying, here. I did the general daily things after that. Made phone calls. Ate, showered, went into town to kill braincells with alcohol for a bit. Simple.
Suppression Session · Sun Mar 25, 2007 @ 07:30am · 0 Comments |
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Sessy's back from his break |
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Yeah. I just had to leave for about a week. I'm sure nobody noticed. (Try not to make that sound emo) I've had to move to another house. A few cities away from where I last was. It's nice, but I think I preferred the last base. I loved the bathroom they had there. A giant open room, with four shower heads on the ceiling in the center. It was in the basement, you could be alone and just stand in the raining waters.
Anyway, I opened my letters here on Gaia the other day. I used all three that someone very generously donated to me as parts of this armor-set. I love it. I didn't think I would, but it is good. Which do you all think is better? This outfit, or my last outfit? If anyone sees this and even remembers my last outfit, that is.
Let's see.. what else.. Ah, I might be moving to New York in the coming months. I won't go into details of why, but I am scared to move there because of the reasons. But, it's better than staying in one place, hm? I've traveled so much more than a 13 year old should, by now, I think.
Suppression Session · Wed Jan 17, 2007 @ 12:24pm · 0 Comments |
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