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WARNING: Although this is a rant, please, just hear me out. It won't be depressing... I hope. But at least it isn't dissing myself. xD
Last time I wrote I was pretty depressed. Hated the world, myself, and everything around me. Thought I wasn't good enough to live. But, hey, I'm not like that anymore! =D Uh... *coughs* Not at the moment at least. ^^' Since then, things have been straightening out little bit by little bit. I've come to not yell at my mom anymore (but my dad is -.-), realize my friends are always there for me, and discover how great life can be.
As far as my love life goes, I've finally seen the light. Internet relationships = low self-esteem. Sooo glad I moved on from those. -_- Now I have a boyfriend who is not only a ten-forty minute bike ride away, but someone who I can talk to and really express my feelings. I know that he'll always be there for me if not always a boyfriend someday, but a great friend as well. ^^ I LOVE YOU, JOSH! >w< <333
Okay, next topic. ^^' School. As you know, it's summer. Yay! Right? Er, yeah-- n-- sort of... not really... no. T.T As the school year came to a close, it ended our middle school career. Not only will we miss the memories of our school, but we're now divided into two rival high schools. Sure we'll continue to be friends, but it just isn't the same as going to school together. The fun at lunch, passing notes in class, making jokes about teachers, and brightening one's morning if they had a bad night. As life goes on more separations will occur, but for now we just need to stay strong and move on. More opportunities, new friends, and many more memories are just around the corner starting in fifty-six days. ^^
Family is still a tough one in my life. People say: "Oh, yeah. I can relate. My aunt had Alzheimer's Disease." or "My grandma had Dimentia. I know what you're going through." But no one I know had ever had their own MOTHER go through this. I know I said I wouldn't make this so I piss people off, but I mean it when I say what my dad and I are going through a true living hell (not even my uncle who sees her once a week). For some reason I'm starting to accept it, but my dad is going through what I had been going through now. He's always pissed and snappy. It's just so hard to live like this...
Sorry. Just one bad rant paragraph. Whoever is still reading, thank you. ^^' So, uh... happy stuff... I went on the school trip to Washington, D.C. and New York! =D That was totally awesome! To actually see all the places I studied... it was just too cool to even imagine. I was gone one week and I made a couple new friends and strengthened some other ones. That's pretty much the highlight of my summer so far. xD
My art you might wondering? Eheheheh... ^^' No. I've drawn some. xD Just haven't had the time to put any up yet. Sorry guys. I'm sure I'll get some soon. They're pretty much just quick sketches I've done in my free time. One is sort of detailed, but not enough to call it a full picture.
So that was my summer time rant. Not so bad compared to some of the others I've done before, wouldn't you say? xD
~ Elie <3
 pkkiai · Thu Jul 10, 2008 @ 01:15am · 0 Comments |
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