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Posted: Fri May 11, 2007 @ 05:39am

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	so the school year is ending. i guess it's time to take that leap off the cliff and see were we land... i think that maybe i'm ready now. it doesn't mean that i'm not scared... cuse i'm terrified. i ask myself what if i'm not ready to grow up? ready for college? ready for love? for the things that we cannot possibly predict to happen.... but if i don't take the chance the i'll never know. and i'm not ready to give up on the rest of my life...... ....................................................... ................................... ................... ............ ...... ... . i wish. i wish. for the landing to be gentle on my heart.

Posted: Fri May 04, 2007 @ 04:28pm

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	pause button. i wish life had one. stare

dancing_wings
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Posted: Sat Apr 21, 2007 @ 03:52am

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	it's a sad thing to realize that I'm 18 and have no life... it's a friday night and my friends are hanging out with their boyfriends and my boyfriend is hanging out with his friends( boys night out)...... my only company is my grandma and her dogs... i need a hobby. emo emo emo

Posted: Mon Apr 16, 2007 @ 12:42am

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	um so today was ROUGH....I was in such a bad freakin mood...I don't even know why...PMS maybe. I feel so bad though cause I blew up at Norman last night and I was a jerk today at work. I know he's still pissed. I dont know whats wrong with me... I guess i'm just stressed because its the end of the school year and everything is about to change.... whatever it doesnt excuse my bitchyness.... excuse me while i drown myself .... just kidding... stressed

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Posted: Thu Apr 12, 2007 @ 04:01am

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	...prom...graduation..morocco...college...my mind is spinning...i do not like change. Its not that I don't want to continue to grow in my life and all that bull...it's just I'm kinda afraid that I'll ****** up. You don't get too many chances and redos in the real world. I don't want to look back forty years from now and have regrets...and it's like everyone is throwing soo much pressure on me to make these descisions and I don't know what I want yet....I mean deciding what to eat for breakfast every morning is a challenge enough you know?! It's just all too much to think about. I just want to enjoy life and learn as much as I possibly can. I don't want to go to college just to get a dead end boring job that makes me crazy....I dont want to live in the burbs for the rest of my life and raise my kids to be sheltered from the world. There's more than that... There's random rendevous in toronto and mud fights while hiking... st I'm rambling...w/e.... all i mean is that there is more.... I'm not quite sure what but it's there.... that's what I want... not another four wall institution and a "boxed" life.

Posted: Mon Mar 26, 2007 @ 06:23am

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	So it's late....I have class tomorrow and I should be sleep ing but it doesn't seem like that's going to happen...not soon anyway. My dad stopped by today....if that's want you call a "visit"....He was here no longer than fifteen minutes...didn't even come in, said he didnt want to "disturb my mom"...whatever...over it. Work was a hassle...was in a really bad mood....i'm not sure why though....just felt overwhelmed, like i needed to cry....felt like an a I kinda took it out on Norman...why do I do that?...st. going to try and get some shut eye.... "have you ever tried to scream...but when you opened your mouth nothing would come out....." sorry random. neutral

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